Chapter 33- Going up in Flames
Paige's POV
"My first kiss... that's not very special." I sigh leaning against the wall. I went for a walk, and Jason found me, so I decided to hang out with him. Right now we're checking on supplies for the baseball field, earlier we walked through the reptile are and he was messing around with a snake! I hate snakes... he did it on purpose. "You make it sound as if you were my first first."
"Your first kiss is very important, don't underestimate it." He warns. "It can tell you a lot about yourself."
"Hmmm, well.... obviously mine tells me I'm an idiot.." I sigh, and he just laughs. "You're right though... curious little girls often do wonder.." I say looking the small window at the field. I wonder about Jake all the time now, what he is doing, if he is doing someone else. Yeah... the wonders jealousy.
"About?" Jason asks, as he finishes up. We leave the shed and I stop thinking as he locks it back up.
"The future.... I guess." I say, even though it's more like is Jake in my future.
"Any certain part of it?" He asks, seeking for more information.
"I guess everyone wonders who they'll marry, or if they'll ever marry. Or maybe like career, or health..." I say walking next to him.
"I want to know about you... not everyone else."
"Well... I'm wondering about who I'll be with. If anyone." I say, still keeping Jake out of the conversation. I wonder if any of this crap that's going on now will be worth it in the end. Once I'm out of highschool, I meet never see Jake or Robbie again. It all depends on where likfe takes us. I could end up across the world, Jake could end up being my neighbor when we're fifty years old... there are just so many options. All this benefits stuff could just be a stupid time passer until the real world hits. I shouldn't have agreed to that either. It's just going to hurt me more in the long run. It'll be fun until he moves on, or until he sees other girls.... he probably already has scene other girls.
"You'll be with some one. It's hard to say you wouldn't be with anyone!" Jason replies, sounding unusually sure. I glance at him, trying to figure out how he figures. "Seriously... you're smart... you're pretty... you're outgoing! You're like the ideal girl for everybody."
"No one is perfect, everyone, even me , has flaws." I say to him.
"Yeah... one of your flaws is you always underestimate yourself. Think you aren't as good as other people." He agrees.
"I think everyone has a bit of that in them." I sigh, knowing he is right. No use arguing with him.
"I don't." He says next to me, and I nod in agreement. He is even cockier then Jake... but lately Jake hasn't been that cocky boy. He's seemed different. I don't know how to explain it, mellow almost. Also from the couple glances in eyes I've seen that he isn't really the big strong jerk he plays. "What are you thinking about? I can tell when you're thinking hard, you'r eye brow goes like this and your eyes glaze over."
"Just .. about how you're right. You're way to cocky." I say, not wanting to keep making the subject serious. Most of the conversations I have with him are light and funny, but this one is pretty heavey.
"Thank you!" He smiles. I just laugh, and the serious conversation is gone. We joke around, as he walks me back to my dorm. It was a nice way to spend the day, and it was a good break from all the stress. I'm happy it's Friday too. I can have the weekend to recooperate myself. Think things through, and get a handle on my life. "See ya later?" He asks, once we're at my dorm.
