Leaders and Lavender

Chapter Sixteen

Atticus' POV

She soon fell asleep in the back seat, once I knew she was safely back in my company I was enraged she had snuck out, even if it was Vierra's plan. Nobody has ever been so brave to defy me after knowing me such a short time. Maybe it was some sort of rebellion for what she witnessed the other night with me and Lindsay. I tried  looking for her but Vierra informed me she passed out in her room. She missed breakfast, then ignored me during lunch and finally went out clubbing. She may be new but she knows my rules.

If this was anyone else I would have killed them for not following my rules, I fill with anger and a unsympathetic cloud rolls over my head.

And then she speaks.

And the cloud goes, every bad thought, negative intention and hint of anger is washed away. She will walk into the room in a little dress, or some thigh highs and she makes me feel soft or some shit.

It isn't good.

This is the last thing I need.

A gentle snore drags me away from those thoughts. My eyes take a double take to see her cuddling into the blanket with her thumb in her mouth.

Oh.......

It makes sense now.

The thumb sucking, the crying, the sudden attitude, the innocent voice that creeps out of nowhere and those incredibly fascinating outfits.

She is a little.

Oh Fuck!

As we pulled up to the house I carried her in trying not to wake her up, once I reached her room I gently place her in bed, tucking a teddy bear in her arms and ran to my room. I slam the door shut and pull out my phone to the only people I think can help.

"Hello" I hear the same happy voice on the end of the phone.

"Adrian I need advice, help, support I don't know just something" I rushed out to my friend on the phone.

"Haha Okay whats wrong I'm putting you on speaker?" Adrian chuckled at my irritation.

"I think I have feelings for a little. I have no clue how to handle a little, submissives yes, slaves yes, pets yes. Little no no no. I have absolutely no clue."

"Chill Atticus" Lawrence laughed, "God she really has your head in a spin".

"Sort of.." I mutter, not knowing what to do.

"Look, takes things slow, let her tell you she is a little in her own time, patience, support and trust are the most important things." Jay butted in, him being the most knowledgeable about being a caregiver.

" I don't know if I can be a Daddy"

"Want to try something?"

Tristian asked flipping on the face time to show the boys sat in their living room. I put mine on as well so they could see my frustration as I was hunched over in my room.

"Angel can you come here please?" Tristian called out, "Coming Bubs" Shortly after the small voice, I saw a petit blonde girl come into frame, she had a little pink dress on and a pacifier in her mouth. She looked slightly shocked to see me but then smiled and waved.

"Hewwo!" She shouted, clearly in little space like the boys had explained on their last visit.

"Hi sweetie" I answer trying to understand more about how to interact with a little.

"This is Atticus, he is interested in a little, Do you have any tips that might help him from a littles perspective Princess?" Adrian cooed at her, they all seemed so gentle and soft with her. Something I was so uncertain of. It reminded me how I can change with Bellamy.

She moved the pacifier from her mouth, "Well umm be kind, we can be shy when we are little, it can be a vulnerable headspace at times. We want to be supported and cared for but don't forget we are consenting adults; we have big feelings the same as you just when we are little things can sometimes affect us more." She pauses for a second, her voice loosing a soft tone slightly.

"We want to be respected, we are not toys for entertainment, We are valid and being understanding or willing to learn goes a long way". She turned around now facing the boys. "Can I go play now?"

"Yes kitten off you go" Lawrence place her pacifier back in her mouth and smacked her bottom as she waddled away to a different room.

" Bye Mr Atticus " I hear yelled from a neighbouring room.

"Bye sweetie" I call slightly amused by her behaviour.

"Not every little is the same" Adrian spoke, " Some times their voice might change, become higher and softer some don't. Others might adore pink sparkly things, while others can love gothic accessories. Any gender or sexual orientation can be littles, and they can have varying interests. Some like paci's, onesies, baking, diapers, nicknames etc. They can enjoy many things but dislike a lot as well ,the same as any submissive."

"So you think I can do it?" I sign a little shocked by this much information.

"Yes!" They all said in unison.

"Thanks , I'm going to go to bed,".

We ended the call and I looked up towards the ceiling to think over my call. I never pictured I would like a little. I always was a strict dominant, more like a master than a caregiver. Although I guess Tristian does it...

Maybe...

Maybe I could be a daddy,

Only for Bellamy.

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Sorry if you haven't read our Darling Girl you might not understand who Atticus' friends are xx