Love Is A Laserquest

A Little Too Wild

TW: Quarrelling, vulgar language, physical abuse, rape, sexual harassment

Alex and the rest of the boys are at the top of their game with the imminent release of their new album called AM. I mean, they have everything now. Prominence, air time on the radios, award nominations, interviews and a bunch of money, of course.

As for me, my modeling career has skyrocketed. Photographers and magazine editors were seeking a chance to have a photoshoot with me. I don't want to believe that my affair with Alex has made me a household name even though it has affected the way people look at me. I guess, having the likes of Alex Turner should mean something in this world.

I have also made a lot of new friends from the modeling field such as Alexa Chung. I mean, I have met other beautiful ladies but her personality and style impressed me the most. Plus, that gave me the chance to attend fancy events where I can wear the classiest clothes and mingle with people I had never met before.

Seeing the people you love succeeding is a really nice thing, even though it has its cons. At the moment, Alex has been touring with the band for a year and a half and despair has weighed me down. I try to distract myself with another photoshoot or going to the clubs with the other girls, still I miss him. And I barely miss someone. Furthermore, paparazzi are so fucking irritating with their questions and their toxic rumours. What kind of rumours? Well, there's a belief that I don't love Alex since I'm not quite emotional or show-y about the way I feel about him and that's just nuts. Also, when I get the chance to be on a fancy event, everyone just talks about Alex. I mean, people just see me as a woman hidden in his shadow but I'm not. Or whenever Alex doesn't escort me in occasions like that, i.e that runway I went to New York a week ago, some people -mostly women- were like; "Why Alex is not with you?". And that's really weird because it degrades me as a person.

As Jamie told me, the final leg of the tour is at Glastonbury festival. That means they're back to the UK. To be honest, I'd love to be there yet my career is constantly calling me in order to travel in places such as Miami and Verona to have a photoshoot with models like Lily Donaldson or to attend meaningless fashion events where some designers have the audacity to think that their collections are progressive when they force their models to wear clothes that no one in real life would ever wear.