Before my last breath

May's tragedy of a back story

Hi, I am May. You have probably heard of my from April as I am all she talks about not to be arrogant but other than food it is. She likes to make a point that I am her only friend. It's not like I am restricting her from other people, she cuts herself off from everyone. It's like she has accepted that, that's who she is and that it can't change. So, enough about April I will tell you a bit about me. So I was in the popular squad. Was as in past tense. When people would talk about us it would be "oh look it's Cleo, Brittany and the leader May" (which is me). That was until Paris came. My dad had been accused of a fraud and Paris's mum was the one accusing him of it. Long story short, my dad was called out as guilty. However, after that, a large sum of money was transferred into our bank account so I think Paris's family payed us to confess so she would not go to jail for a false accusation. But that is ok, as we needed the money and my dad's jail time was only for one year. After that I was kicked out of the popular gang, obviously, as Paris twisted the story to make my family seem like criminals. And just to my luck Paris replaced me. So I lost all my friends and April joined looking for a friend, so it was like destiny that we became friends. Being known as the fat girl she had no friends, so after that we never left each other's side. I was known as the fat girls friend, which I obviously was not happy with but at least I was not the fat girl. So, if she did not care about the name tag she was given I could not really complain. I have stuck by April's bullying for years, comforting her, wiping her tears, blocking texts, so I think if anyone should get an award for the nicest friend... it should be me! Yes I still have bad habits for judging people (not April) for their looks and personality, but that's one of the traits that you pick up after being the most popular girl in the school. Even though I am not that anymore, those kinda traits are especially hard to just  get rid of. I can push them to a side but once in a while they resurface and erupt from out of nowhere. April tries to help me suppress those kinda feelings and comments because it's not like people are scared of me anymore. When I was popular and I would say those kind of mean insults, people would just walk on not daring to answer back, but now they will just shout one back to me. Uhhh I really miss the old days. Gees I sound like a granny. Obviously I don't miss the toxic friendships and the lies but the feeling of popularity and domination is extremely hard to beat. Especially when your life just now revolves around one friend who is basically holding me together and helping me not become the most hated person in the school. 

However, despite all that negativity (which you should not claim) my life at school is not too horrible compared to others.