Into The Hills

Chapter 32

WARNING: M RATED

Stefan's POV

My eyes snap up to meet her brown ones, their filled with sadness, and a little pain, at the question she just asked. I can't help my breathing, it becomes restless, as she holds my hand, pressing the ice against it, it feels good, it feels like a breath of fresh air, but there she goes again, taking my pure air away again.

I almost don't want to answer, but I know I have to, she deserves an explanation of my behavior that night.

But how did I explain that I felt so numb and alone? And worthless. She had just left me, my ray of sunshine left me and took all the memories we had with her, my brother was no longer talking to me, wasn't even trying to reach out to me, you were long gone, and I felt so empty, it was like a thousand goodbyes in one when you left.

She stares at me, patiently waiting for me to start my explanation.

"I lost myself, Elena, when you left, that little part of me that was getting better, the part that you fixed and helped me fix, it was gone. I had nothing left, I was empty, I even had a dream.. I got to say the words I felt, when I woke up from death, I don't think you realize how much I loved you, or how much you meant to me when we were together, how much of an positive influence you had on me. I say softly, and I see her look down.

"I'm so sorry." She whispers, as I watch her tears fall onto the bed, she refuses to look up at me, and that hurts the most.

"I drove you to suicide." She exclaims, helpless, as the tears fall down her cheeks, but I quickly protest that idea of out her head.

"No, it's not your fault, Elena, no." I say over and over again but she shakes her head, crying, her hands shaking, as she moves away from my advances to her.

"Elena, please." I whisper, as I step closer to her, her hands are shaking over her face, as she refuses to look at me, her warmth radiates into my being, and I watch as she puts her hands over her tear streaked face, I gently lift her face up into my hands, and she stares at me, sniffling, her tears falling.

"None, none of this is your fault, Elena, I promise." I whisper, and she starts to shake her head, and I think of ways I can show her that I love her, still, that she's the most important thing to ever happen to me. Her lip trembles a little bit, and I lean down to kiss her, my lips molding over hers, perfectly, my head is spinning but I don't pull up for air, until she kisses me back, her hands on the side of my chin, rubbing my stubble with her long fingers, shivers shoot down my spine, as I feel a flutter in my heart, as I pull her closer, we stare into each others eyes, and she looks at me, while her hand slowly drifts down to the end of her gray pull over, I watch as she takes it off, her abs flexing as she pulls the shirt over her head, leaving her in a black bra, I bite my lip, and hold her tenderly by the waist, my hand smooths back her brown hair out of her face, as I lean down to kiss her again, holding her thin waist. She kisses me back, her arms fitting around my neck, as she pulls me closer, all I can smell is her sweet scent, and it makes me think about the first time we made love, how innocent and sweet it was.

I lay her back gently on the bed, her hands grab for the end of my thin t-shirt, and I let her pull it up, till it's over my head, and she stares down at me, her brown eyes devouring me in one look. I lean down and kiss her again, her legs wrap around my waist, as I dive my tongue into her mouth, kissing her harder, my hands pressed on either side of her head, as she moans low, her tongue colliding with mine.

My eyes stay closed as I feel my way down the soft skin of her stomach, tugging off her sweat pants, I pull back, panting, as my lips connect with her neck, it's hot against my tongue as I bite into her sweet spot, I feel her shudder underneath me, her low panting in my ear, as her fingers shift through my shaggy hair.

I blow on the spot I just sucked, and she moans into my ear, the sound makes my blood travel south, as I realize I'm hard against her, she rocks into me, and I groan low, as her hands pull down my shorts, I feel my heart beating out of my chest as I kiss her again, my hands caressing her sides, I slowly pull down her black panties, my mouth latches onto her hot skin below her belly button, and her legs automatically spread for me, and I catch the sweet scent of her core, and it makes my head pound lightly, as I lean down and lick a long strip of her slit, she hips buck against my face, and I hold her down by her ankles, spreading her wider, as my tongue dives in between her folds faster and faster, until she's panting on the bed, my name is on her lips like a prayer, and she wraps her legs around my head, begging me not to stop, and I know when I brush against her swollen clit with my nose, she comes hard, sighing in relief, her legs shaking underneath me, and I gently let her go, she's shaking on the bed, her eyes on mine, and I lean over her, as she pulls down my boxers.

I push into her, and she takes me, her face relaxing, as I begin to rock up back and forth hard, her moans echo off the walls, as I gently lean behind her with my fingers, unsnapping her bra, it falls down on the bed, and my mouth immediately secures onto her nipple, sucking on it, as she moans beneath me, her eyes never leave mine, as I push in and out of her, she feels so damn good and tight, and I groan when she purrs into my ear, her hair tickling my nose, as I unlatch her nipple from my mouth, I kiss between her breasts, pushing in and out, and I almost yell when I feel the pulsing of her core around me, I know she's close, and she begs me to hurry up, her cheeks flushed red, as she moves against me, and I silence her with a kiss, kicking up my speed, the bed is shaking beneath us, and I moan low down her throat, her eyes roll back into her head, and I know she's going to come soon, but then I feel her hand over mine, and she intertwines our fingers, and I hold onto her tight, telling her that's she's was my rock in all of this, that I will always love her, and we're one now.

I see her eyes roll back into her head, and I know she just comed, because I feel it, it drips down my leg, and that's when I lose it, exploding inside of her, my head falls on her chest, breathing heavily and she runs her fingers through my hair, her breathing fills my ear.

"Oh my god." She exclaims loud, as she lays there, stroking my hair, and I nod my head yes, gently kissing her chest, and she giggles, it's like music to my ears.

"I love you." I say breathless, as I lift my head up to look at her, and she nods, smiling softly at me, and I get off her, as I lay next to her, my head hits the pillow and she instantly cuddles in my chest, her hair tickling it, and I run my fingers through it, smiling, I feel brand new, like I was never broken, with her in my arms.

She smiles up at me, our hands still intertwined, and I lean down to peck her lips, she accepts my innocent kiss, and smiles up at me, when I pull back.

I put the covers over us, closing my eyes.

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