Jungkook never thought that he'd find a home behind a four metre tall fence and concrete walls, but with the help of the Woodburians, the growing group turned the place into a sanctuary for all. That's until the group was tested by a deadly virus an...
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Jungkook's words bounced between the walls of Taehyung's mind - again and again and again until they left behind permanent scars to decorate his thoughts. Taehyung was aware that by revealing his feelings Jungkook had created a change in their relationship, a change that would prevent them from ever being only friends again.
Taehyung was conflicted about the opportunity he was given. While giving Jungkook and their potential relationship a chance wouldn't harm anyone and would only create a strain there, the same strain that would now taint their relationship if he decided to be just friends, a part of Taehyung was still reluctant to do so.
That tiny part manifested from the feeling of fear rooted deep inside the veins of his heart. Trying to sniff out the source of the fear, Taehyung began to think of all the things that scared him. Jungkook hugging him and kissing him? No. The pair cuddling and sharing a bed? No. Perhaps it was the label boyfriends that emitted the feeling of fear? But as Taehyung thought more about it, about looking at Jungkook and being able to call him his boyfriend, or telling other people that they were boyfriends, Taehyung didn't feel scared or uncomfortable at the thought. But then what caused it?
Perhaps it was the fact that Taehyung was living a lie and Jungkook only liked the version of him that Taehyung allowed him to see? After all, Jungkook knew nothing about his past or trauma, he knew nothing about the inner demons he was slaying during the night and he knew nothing about how to lend a helping hand to Taehyung to slay them together. And perhaps that feeling of fear came from the realisation that one day his mask would slip and Jungkook would find out the person that got moulded in the palms of abuse. Perhaps the reason why Taehyung was so reluctant was that he was scared of baring his heart and soul to Jungkook, the younger boy would leave him as soon as he was introduced to the demons hiding inside the crevices of his mind.
Or perhaps Taehyung was digging too deeply into the main issue and clinging too harshly to the past? Perhaps the reason for his hesitation was that he didn't want to lie to Jungkook and give him false hope because Taehyung has never been in a romantic relationship before and he didn't know how it felt to have feelings for someone. Taehyung didn't know if he liked Jungkook like that, he just knew he cared for him greatly, so he didn't want to break his heart when he realised that his love for the boy was purely platonic.
Jungkook presented Taehyung with a choice - lie to the bunny boy and shatter his heart by telling him that he didn't want to give them a chance, or unravel the secrets he had been keeping and allow Jungkook to catch a glimpse of the person hidden beneath his iron skin. Taehyung was tempted by both options, making him wonder which one was stronger - the fear of possibilities or the rawest forms of love.
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Despite stabbing the shovel into the ground and digging graves the entire evening, Jungkook's mind was plagued with the rotting images of what had occurred in Taehyung's cell and how he had left the latter alone right after he had woken up. The ribbons of guilt wrapped around Jungkook's wrist the entire day - tightening with each grave he dug and hour that ticked by.
