As tears streamed down your face, you sighed. You were done with everything. With your family for not being supportive on your relationship with Luhan. With
Luhan for not being there when you needed him. With yourself for being so selfish. With the sasaengs for all the hate you were receiving just for loving someone so much.
Every time time you closed your eyes, you could see all this hateful comments. FAT. UGLY. WORTHLESS. BITCH. SLUT.
No matter how hard you tried, this words were affecting you more than you thought.
You blinked your tears away just for more to fall, it was useless. You were useless.
Someone banged on your door.
-____, ____ are you there? Please open the door jagiya- Luhan. Luhan was home earlier than you expected. If he sees your red and puffy eyes, he would know that something is wrong and this is not going to happen because your top priority is to make Luhan happy.
-I'm gonna take a shower!- you tried to put a cheerful voice. All you have is 30 minutes to recover yourself before facing him.
-Okay. Are you okay jagiya? Your voice sounds shaky...-damn it.
-It's okay oppa, I just coughed and you know what happens when I have a cough attack- I tried to cover my mistake.
I don't let him reply. I strip my clothes and enter on the shower turning the hot water on.
As the water falls I let my tears fall too. I was to absorted in my own world that I didn't notice that Luhan opened the door until his arms were around my waist.
-You are a terrible liar-he back hugged you. You could feel his clothes getting wet.
-Luhan , let me go. Your clothes are getting wet- You tried to push his hands away, but he just hugged you tighter.
-I don't care about the fucking clothes. The only thing that matters to me it's you and only you- And that was when you lost it. You cried harder and harder. All your feelings that were bottled inside exploded and you couldn't do anything to control it.
-Cry, cry it all out. Don't keep it inside jagiya. Tell what's bothering you, why didn't you tell me about the sasaengs. If it wasn't because Chanyeol can't keep his mouth closed I wouldn't know about this!- he was frustrated, you could feel it.
-You never were home Luhan, I felt that I was bothering you! You are always busy! You need to focus on your career
-My career? FUCK MY CAREER!! You are more important!- He turned you around and you covered yourself, he was still dressed, but you were naked.- Listen to me carefully, i love you, and i'm sorry for being an horrible boyfriend, for not being there for you, for not protecting you from those who wanted to hurt you. I'm sorry jagiya- he kissed the top of my head and started to hum a song. Our song.
After some minutes and under the hot water, hearing his soft voice you relaxed. You could feel your eyelids getting heavier by the second. The last thing you remember was Luhan turning off the water and wrapping you on a towel.
-Sleep well, my princess.
- 2 HOURS LATER-
You opened your eyes and the first thing you saw was Luhan's face. He was facing you on the bed, fast sleep. His hands were holding yours, like he was afraid on letting you go.
Now that you think about it, you feel stupid. Why on earth did you care about what sasaengs thought about you when you have him.
He was the only thing that should matter.
He was what you needed.
All you needed was love.
