I knew this would happen. Depression is back as always. I can't fight it any longer. I don't have the strenght to keep fighting. I'm breaking inside. Even faking smiles is hard. I used to be called "Happy Virus" like Chanyeollie... but not anymore. The fact that I want to kill myself is not something that scares me. I've been living like this for six years. Is time to let it go.
To make everyone happy and dissapear. Everything will be better. The sun will appear every morning, life will go on, with or without me. I'm sorry for all the trouble I caused. I'm selfish, stupid that I let people hurt me and I forgive them. I'm always alone. I don't have friends... because I am fat, ugly, a freak ... Who would love a girl with a body full of scars? No one. I'm sorry for being a total failure. I want you to know that while writing this I thinked of every one of you. I'm so sorry for everything I caused.
