TFATWS X READER

A Late Night Conversation

I woke up, sweating and breathless. The sleeping pill did as much as it could. 

Its a repeating cycle over and over again. 

The same nightmares repeating itself like a broken record, I'm sick and tired of it. I looked over to see the time, 4:18 am. 

But today, it was different. I felt.... a foreign presence. As much as I want to think it's in my head, it felt too damn real. 

I quickly turned my head towards the window when I felt something staring at me. I approached the window and prepared to defend myself if I had to. 

Nothing. 

I took a deep breath.

I'm in one of the most secured facility known, I doubt its easy for anyone to sneak in. I'm probably just paranoid. But my instincts are usually right.

I sighed and made my way to the kitchen and sat by the counter. I need to get my head straight. Its all over the place and I don't feel like I have control over myself. I'm vulnerable and I hate it. I was stronger in HYDRA. I know I am still strong now, I'm just tired; and relieved that I'm out of there in the first place.

"Can't sleep?" 

"Jesus-- James" I startled when I heard his voice.

He chuckled and sat across me. 

We made eye contact for a while. 

"Nightmares?" He asked. 

"Nothing new. You?" I pressed my lips. 

"Same old, same old" 

"Does it ever get easier?" I looked at him.

He sighed. "Eventually, but that is if you fight it. But I can't guarantee complete freedom" He pressed his lips.

I looked at him. "It never goes away now does it?" 

I fidgeted my fingers, feeling uneasy. 

"Hey. You're strong" 

"I-- I don't know" I looked away. These nightmares are eating me up alive. 

"I know you are" He said and walked to get two glasses. He reached for a bottle from the top shelf and poured some vodka into his glass. 

I raised my eyebrows and stared at my empty glass. 

"None for your kid?" I jokingly said. "I've gone through shit, I deserve a little alcohol"

"Nah you're getting orange juice." He smiled. "And technically you're my kid for two months, relax" 

"And what happens after the two months pass by?" I bit my inner cheek and looked at him.

He paused. "Then you become my sister. Sorry to say this but there's no way you're running away from me" He smiled.

I smiled back. 

"This stays between us" He said as he poured me a glass. 

He joined me again and passed my glass to me. 

"To surviving in this bullshit world and taking down Hydra" James said, and we did a small toast. 

We drank in silence. Just two unstable and traumatized individuals having vodka at 4am. 

"James" I called him. 

"Hmm?" 

"Thank you" 

He looked at me and soften his eyes. 

"You don't hav--"

"No" I cut him off. "I mean it" 

"I'm here because of you and I want you to know that" I looked him directly into his eyes. 

"Do Smerti" 

"Do Smerti" I replied. 

Is this the time to tell him? But I don't know how to. Its not really a big of a deal to be honest; or is it?

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Hey! Really sorry for the short chapter, assignments are stacking up and killing me :/ I will update frequently when I am done with them. Thank you for reading my book, I really appreciate it!