Further Apart...

Lonliness

Its been a week after my bastard of a husband took my virginity without my permission, I don't know how can I come out of that nightmare...
since from that day  Im getting nightmares and panic attacks  some of the maids in the house have seen me lying on the ground  when they came to touch and help me out i was screaming like a mad woman afraid what they might do to me,,,,
after some time of relaxing my nerves   i apologized and literally begged them not to  talk about this to anyone including my husband ...
I don't want anything.
I've never seen him since that day, since I was not in a good mood to go out I informed mother to ask one of their drivers to drop leo at our house.
.
.
.
take a deep breath  u can do this val.....
  I finally decided to call emily and  Richard today all these a days i ignored all the call and texts,  when the came here I informed my maid to tell them I was out with my parents for a vacations which was a lie, speaking about them I really miss them I wanna hold and hug mom, and wanna talk to dad  ohhh God I miss them so much...
after talking to these guys  i call and talk to mom....

I shakily took my phone and called Emily first
she picked up immediately..

"What the fuck Velerina,  where the fuck are you? what were you evem thinking  haan,,, that u can dutch and ignore me for a freaking week after your husband angrily  dragged you from the  club???"
 
thank god  we are in the phone instead of being together in a room.

help me godddddd..
so many questions at a time...

" Im so sorry Emily....I wanted to call..."

"fuck your sorry..." where the fuck are u???

i took a deep breath

"Listen Emily Im fine evrythings fine amd right now Im in my house, I mean in Vincent's mansion right now..
I was in a vacation with my parents since it was my birthday  and they never missed my birthday they called Vincent and told him to arrange a flight ticket to my place without my knowledge, so after he dragged me    he explained me about this and the same night I flew  to my parents place...
we had a very good family reunion   there and it was more like a no phones rule  so sorry i was not able to call you..."

I cringed at my own lie and bit my inner cheeks praying she should  believe my lie.....

There was silence for some seconds after hearing my excuse,,
i can feel she's control her anger now..
i can hear her sighing..

That's okai Val but Im hurt that you did not even think of once calling and informing me about it,
I was so worried about you..
her voice was trembling at the last sentence...

a lone tear escaped my eye.
Im such a bad friend for ignoring her like that  she was so worried about me, but I was not ready to face them both physically and mentally....

I was bitting my lip to stop myself from crying..

"Emily  you know I love you right and I'm so sorry for not calling you"..

I was crying now....
"I felt relieved when I heard you voice Val  and I love you too its okai let's meet when ever your free now take rest okai."

"Yeah and thank you Emily bye."

"Love you take care bye Val..."
I disconnected the call.

later I called Richard and talked to him for sometime I apologized for everything and I was so guilty for Vincent's behavior  for man handling him....

he told not to worry and that everything was alright and he's fine now
and we are in good terms now.
I sighed in relief.....

After clearing things out between them,
I took a deep breath and drifted back to sleep....
.
.
.
.
.
I woke up to my phones ringing..
I rubbed my eyes and saw who was calling me it was my mother...
.
.
"Valerina,  how are you dear??"