My friends and family don't know me, not anymore. They think they do but that's impossible because when I'm with them, there is nothing real there. My smiles are faker than I would like to admit and I'm sure if they cared to look hard enough they would see a void behind my eyes. The void opened within me after my father murdered my mum, I dealt with it, the thin white lines that stain every inch of my left forearm can prove that.
The first time I felt the void begin to stitch itself shut, was the first time I saved someone's life. The day I saved Oliver Queen.
Then the lightning struck. When I woke from the coma, for the first time since I was 11, I could feel something other than the emotionless void. I could feel the familial love for Joe and Iris, the hatred I held for the sperm donor, but most of all, I could feel the longing to be wrapped in the comforting arms of my mother, while I cried. But I didn't know the people I woke up to, so I locked the emotions inside, to let out later when I was alone.
Saving the citizens of Central City kept the void sealed shut and I was doing great and I was happy. But then the singularity happened. We lost Eddie, Ronnie and countless other people. I knew that Caitlin and Iris didn't blame me for their deaths, but I did. I wasn't fast enough. It was my job to protect my city and I failed. I not only failed but I got two of the best men I knew killed.
So I shut myself off, cut contact with the team, and began to rebuild the city at night. The only thing keeping the blade away from my skin was knowing that my friends and family were safe and away from me.
That didn't last long. Before I knew it the team had forced themselves back into my life. I built my walls so high that not even I could get out, but more importantly no one could get in. The team was so happy to be back working together that I couldn't bear to bring them down. So
I faked the joy, the smiles, the laughs. No one knew. I turned back to the one friend I thought I could trust... the blade.
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I Need Someone to Save Me
Teen FictionYou're probably thinking that this is the love story of the month and that Oliver and I bumped into each other one day and we fell in love... Well that's not exactly what happened... actually that's not even close to what happened. This is the story...
