This is how we do.

.:Slow Breathing:.

Kellin's P.O.V.-

Here I was sitting with my best friend Gabe, after smoking a few joints, just relaxing letting our high take us over. Another best friend, Tay, sitting on my bed on my phone, probably scrolling through my photo's.

"Kellin, you have too many photo's of Vic on here." She said with a splash of anger in her voice. Tay and Gabe both knew about what happened, and hated his guts for it, I couldn't blame them.

"I guess they never deleted themselves." I said, the high talking. I didn't want to delete them. They reminded me of how much joy he brought into my life, but how much pain he did too. He was my first love.

"I'm deleting them all." She said calmly, trying to not get mad at me at this state.

"No!" I said, jumping off the floor, stumbling over my feet to get to the bed that seemed forever away. "I like them there." I muttered hoping she didn't hear. But she did. Her eyes widened and jaw dropped. My hand flew to my mouth, surprised that it came from between my own two lips. I shook my head at my own words.

"Is that even possible after what he did?" Gabe asked still from the floor. Slowly coming down from his high, " I mean like, he hurt you both physically and emotionally, and you're still keeping pictures of him in your phone?" he asked, starting to stand up. Yes it was very possible. Tears were streaming by now. The thoughts of what happened flooding my mind. They promised not to bring it up anymore after it happened. But here they were, my bestfriends, making my walls break down and making me have a fucking anxiety attack.

"I know it isn't-very-mature-of me," I tried talking between sobbs, "but you have to understand, that he was my first love. Always have been and always will be. I will never let myself forget him, no matter how much it hurts keeping them on my phone. I still like to see his face when I get upset, he still makes me smile, just as much as he did when I first met him. So please- Don't judge me on th-." My little rant was ebruptly stopped when loud knocking came from the front door. My parents weren't home for another 3 days and don't care about me enough to come home early.

I walked over to the door. "Hel-" I was stopped mid sentence when I saw who was at the door. Tears, one by one, slowly streamed down my face. "Now isn't a good time." I said quickly and started to shut the door but he suck his foot between the door and the doorframe.

"We - I -" he rephrased his sentence and looked at the others. "I need to apologize."

"Too bad it's not worth anything, Vic. You did it and you can't change it. Now leave." I said through gritted teeth. Mike stepped forward.

"Kellin, he's being serious, trust me. Please." he pleaded. I gave into Mike, he was a close friend. I stood out of the way, wiping my tears from my cheeks, earning a sympathetic hug from Jaime.

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It's short i know, but its an update, I'm sorry :(