In Between S2-> S3(Megatron X OC X Optimus)

Crossfire (3)

Warning: Contains Self Harm and harsh name calling

                   Knockout then says "Still gonna stare at me, huh? I lost the one thing I cared about besides my own paint job!!!!" He grabs my throat and presses me to the wall. Dreadwing steps forward, watching me. I pull Knockout's servo away and leave. I go to my room and sit on my berth. My tears rushed out of my optics.

A voice that I hadn't heard in my head for awhile came back; and whenever I heard it, bad things happened. And I listened...."
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Go on.....
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Do it.....
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Hurt yourself......
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I tried to keep it away, but it continued....
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Grab the blade.....
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Do it, mistake......
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The voice sounded like Starscream's almost.....

I couldn't hold back..... I grabbed the blade from the corner of the floor under of my desk and sat back down. "Go on, you little Failure..." the voice sounded again. "Stop...." I say." The voice argues "Or what? It's not like anyone's gonna miss you.... Dreadwing is only gonna use you like Megatron does...." I just wanted to stop it. I held up my arm and the voice took me over. It set the sharp metal to my skin and rubbed across it, until a highlight shown through. It did this a few times and then repeated it to my other arm.

I then didn't feel blank anymore. But I still couldn't find anything I cared for..... or why I was even alive. I should have just let Starscream kill me......

I clean off my wrists under water. It stung so bad..... I dried my arms and then walked out, my hands slid back a bit, hiding my wrists in my armor. I saw Dreadwing in another hallway, looking for me. "Shivers? Are you okay?" He asks. I nod "let's just..... go to Megatron....." Dreads agrees and we walk to the bridge.

Once there, Dreadwing explains what happened, and megatron goes off on us. "The reason for our inability to locate Breakdown's signal is all too clear. But how is it that you are unable to his remains!!??" I couldn't speak. The mention of it would make me break. And I had to stay strong for him. Decepticons don't break that easy..... at some points, I'm strong. Others..... not so much......

                The alarm went off on the main screen. "What is it?" Megatron asks. Soundwave answers it. It was Airachnid "heard from Breakdown lately?" Megatron growls "Trace the communication." Airachnid goes on "Megatron, truly. You sent simple henchmen, and your pet to terminate a high ranking officer. I thought you reserved that honor for yourself." Megatron steps forward, and snaps "is that a challenge!!??" "An invitation, and since Soundwave is no doubt tracing this communication, you know where to find me."

              The com ends and Megatron looks to me "She calls you that a lot, doesn't she?" I nod "it's really annoying and just kills me." Mega says "You won't hear that much more after this. I'll be back." Dreadwing goes after him "Allow me to accompany you." Megatron growls "you already had your chance!!" Dreadwing then goes on "what about ShiverTooth?" Megatron stops and turns back around "ShiverTooth would see to the same fate as Breakdown. It's for the best that he stays here. I wish no harm but my own to come to him." He continues walking. Once at the door, he turns back to me once again "I mean that."