New Discoveries

Chapter 10

"Mum... Dad" I said, stepping back slightly. I felt Niall's hand on the small of my back, for support, as always. I relaxed at his touch, sinking my back into his chest, crossing my arms over my stomach. Their eyes held mixed emotion's, mainly pain and regret but a little bit of excitement.

"Hi sweetie" my mum said quietly. I flinched at her words and only blinked once. "It's been a while" she said rubbing her hands together. My dad put his hand on her shoulder, for comfort, just as I felt Niall wrap his arms around my waist, pulling me into his chest. My dad nodded at Niall, while looking at his hands.

"What are you doing here?" I asked, ruder than intended.

"I've been waiting months to come and see you and your baby" mum smiled, but I didnt return it. "I heard you were in America. So I flew over to meet you" mum exlained further, looking at me with sign's of hope that I'd let her in. I just stared at her, not knowing what to say. I was remotely glad, to see her but flashbacks of her kicking me out came back and angered me. "Can we come in please?" she asked, clutching her coat around her. It was winter but summer was coming.

I didn't speak, only held the door open for them. They looked around as they entered the room. Everyone fell silent as their presence came into view, they looked at each other wide eyed. Lou held Toby close to her. Mum just stared at him, shock covering her face. I wanted to hold my baby protectively, unaware of how she'd react, but Niall held onto me while eveyone cleared a couch for my parents to sit. Lou looked at me as if to say 'you okay', in which I nodded and with that she walked over to me and handed me Toby. They all left in silence, once the door slammed shut I shuffled over to the opposite couch and sat down. Niall seated himself next to me and the four of us fell silent.

Mum's eyes never left Toby, as I rubbed the small hairs on his head. "How old is he?" she whispered. It took everything in me to answer, but after a few seconds I finally did.

"Only a week," I said quietly back. Mum sucked in a breath and held her hand over her mouth.

"I'm so sorry." She sobbed after trying to stop the waterworks running down her cheeks. There were bags under her eyes that I didnt notice earlier. She burried her face in dad's shoulder.

"Words can't describe how much I've missed you, and how much I've regretted everthing I ever did, I missed you going through all of this and weren't there to support you through our own grandson's birth" mum spoke, looking back up.

"How is he your grandson when you haven't been here? You don't deserve to call him that" I mumbled, leaning against Niall. My dad swallowed and looked down.

"I'm sorry for that, but all I ask is for you to forgive me. You're my daughter, and I need you back in my life." mum said, wiping her eyes.

"We love you, you know that. You always have," my mum suddenly cried. I shook my head.

"Then why did you kick me out. I was scared and worried, I didn't have any motherly support. I was lucky enough to have an amazing brother who took me in and looked after me, and Niall who is more of a person than you would ever be!" I yelled. Her words made me mad, upset and I just wanted to scream. Who does she think she is, thinking she can just waltz back into my life after what she did to me?

"Jess," Niall's voice whispered in my ear as his lips pressed against my temple. I breathed in, letting my eyes stay shut for a few seconds before opening them.

"We were too shocked. It was an 'in the moment' kind of thing." mum said quietly, her eyes stared straight into mine. I knew she was telling the truth, but hell. How can I just accept her after what she did? I need time to think about it all.

I shook my head. "I'm sorry," I said while standing. "But I need to take some time to think about this, It's too much. I'm sorry but you can't see Toby today. You can go" I said walking towards Niall and I's room. I shut the door and placed a curious looking Toby on the bed next to me.

His blue eyes looked around the room, arms flapping about. I smiled, forgetting everything out there and foccused on him. He was definately a mummy's boy. I rubbed my finger over his stomach, when suddenly he gripped my finger. I smiled and kissed his nose.

The bedroom door slowly opened and Niall walked in. "I want her to give me some space," I sighed, rubbing my forehead. Niall nodded and sat down on the bed.

"I told them to come back in a few days," He smiled. I sent a small smile back and rested my head on the head board.

"Look at this," I chuckled, motioning towards Toby's grip on my finger. Niall smiled.

"He's gonna have guns like his dad" he winked, making me laugh.

"Ha, ha, ha" I said sarcastically. "I guess our next baby is going to get her looks from me." I smirked. He raised an eyebrow.

"Mm, that's half true." he smiled cheeckily then laughed. I laughed, gently slapping his arm. "I'm kifding, she'll be just as beautiful as you, Toby's just going to be hot like me." He again, said proudly. I laughed.