till death do us part - a sdr2 rewrite and soudam story

Chapter 23

"hey kaz how are you feeling" she sighed, i guess she was disappointed at the mess she saw of me, i don't even wanna look.
"as good as i can be in this mess, how 'bout you sonia."
"fine thanks, but here i've been instructed to give this to you. we believe it may help tanaka calm down, ever since he over heard someone saying you're up he's been insisting to talk to you in every way possible."
"so he still cares huh?" a small smile crept into my face.
"my number is on here too, just incase." she gave me a tired but reassuring smile and handed me a burner phone. she walked off and the hatch was closed. i unlocked the phone and saw two numbers in it 'gundham tanaka' and 'sonia nevermind'. i opened the text chat between me and gundham and typed a paragraph. i then deleted it and just sent "hi :)". he responded immediately "good day my dark prince, i have missed you ever so much. how do you feel in this hellish prison."
"i'm doing as good as i can wbu :)"
"i am doing extremely better in your presence my dark prince, even if it is through this electronic device."
"it's better than nothing though isn't it :D"
"yes i do believe you are correct"
we talked for hours, mainly gundham telling me about his treatments to try and rid his mind of his despair side. he started talking weird so i text sonia.
"hey i know i'm supposed to contact you incase of emergency but tanaka keeps going on about blowing up a school when we get out of here for the cause of despair and part of me wants to say yeah so i'm giving you a heads up"
"thank you kazuichi! you have truly done the right thing contacting me, i will try to help him immediately and i will inform mr togami :)"
"thanks sonia :D"
i closed the phone. i decided to not message tanaka back about the school thing as i could feel a part of me that wanted to agree, i hate having that part of me. i feel partially like it's gonna be there forever and i don't want that for me, i don't want it for tanaka either. i hope togami can help him...

gundhams pov (wow after coming back after months he finally does someone else's pov):

i feel the despair coursing through my veins as i talk to kazuichi after being apart all this time. memories flash in my head of all the things we did together, one in particular sticks with me. it was a sort of normal day in the souda-tanaka household, i was doing some work for junko on a laptop when i hear crying from the bedroom me and my husband share. i recognise its kaz immediately and dash in to see the problem. i see him squished into a corner sobbing into one of his plushies. i walk over as not to frighten him and whisper "my dear, what is the cause of your misfortune?" i have to admit, i did enjoy him in this state but we cant do our job if hes like this all the time, and i also wanna help him. he sniffles and wipes his face and hiccups.

"d-did you ever t-t-think about k-kids *hic* gundy?" he looks at me awaiting an answer with wide eyes, merely moments away from beginning to cry again.

"i will admit the idea has seemed appealing to me at times, why do you ask my love?"

"b-b-because o-of d-d-despair" he bursts out crying again "we can n-never have o-our own, w-w-what shitty fathers we would be t-to the p-poor thing."

the memory finishes there, i cant quite remember what happened next, i recieve a text from kaz. i can tell hes not doing the best and a tear rolls down my face. the world should pay for what they do to him, stupid kids. he'd make a great father and i know it! i start to lose control and give in to the despair. i send him a request and he starts to type but then does not answer, after that there are heavy knocks on my door with mr togami asking i confirm my name.

"my name is GUNDHAM TANAKA and you will all pay for keeping me from him, give me him. i demand YOU BRING HIM HERE"

"sorry tough guy we don't do anything for you, do you need assistance with uh managing"

i start to slip away and everything goes black.

hey guys im uh back, i go by kai now but thanks for reading