Pretend- Jaywon ff [Book 1]

sequel pt.2

song recommendation^^

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"Hyung! I'm going shopping!" Sunoo walked downstairs looking for Heeseung "Hyung!" Sunoo shouted again only to hear an inaudible groan coming from the living room.

"Oh- sorry I didn't know you guys were sleeping" Sunoo apologized noticing Sunghoon's slightly irritated face from waking up so sudden.

"What is it?!" Heeseung asked grumpily looking at Sunoo with half-lidded eyes.

"I just wanted to tell you I'm going to the mall so if Ni-ki wakes up and asks for me you can tell him" Sunoo explained still feeling bad for waking his hyungs up for such a silly reason.

"Mhm no problem" Heeseung grumbled sitting up on the sofa and stretching.

"Thanks hyung see you!" Sunoo said and exited the house.

Heeseung lifted himself of the couch only to have Sunghoon grab him by the arm and pull him down on the sofa.

"Stay" he mumbled his voice laced with sleepiness.

"If I do whose gonna make you breakfast hmm?" Heeseung asked finding it hard to sit up in Sunghoon's warm embrace.

"Jay or Jungwon can do that" Sunghoon mumbled pulling Heeseung closer to him.

"I'm not sure about that" Heeseung said now wide awake and the mention of the couple "You see Jay he-"

"Shh you talk too much" Sunghoon placed his fingers of Heeseung lips.

"I guess they can" Heeseung said although he knew it wasn't a good idea he still agreed and they both fell back to sleep.

Speaking of the two, Jay lazily walked to the kitchen and sat on one of the stool's resting his head on the kitchen island.

Not long after Jungwon walked into the kitchen and started making breakfast.

The sizzling woke Jay up who fell asleep in the kitchen for a few minutes. Upon thinking it was Heeseung he immediately spoke

"Heeseung hyung, what's for breakfast?" Jay grumbled blinking his eyes multiple times to see properly but when he looked up he was met with the back of the person he loves.

"Wonie" Jay called softly hoping somewhere deep down Jungwon will finally answer him but again his high hopes were crushed.

"I'm hungry" Jay tried again hoping Jungwon is making breakfast for him too.

"There's ingredients all around you make your own food" Jungwon voice was flat almost dead.

Jay's chest felt heavy at those words. He's been hearing this for almost a month now he should be used to it but he's not.

Jay just looked at Jungwon's back lost deep in thought when he noticed something at the back of Jungwon's neck.

Jay got up from his seat and took slow steps towards Jungwon who was too busy cooking too notice.

As Jay got closer the mark became more visible. It was a slight cut slashed at the back of Jungwon neck partially covered by his necklace.

Jay went closer to Jungwon and touched the cold silver metal of the necklace.

The unexpected touch jolted Jungwon who almost tipped the pot over.

"Jay what the fu-"

"Where did you get this?" Jay asked calmly brushing his fingers over the cut.

"Oh I f-fell a f-few d-days a-ag-go" Jungwon stuttered nervously as the flashbacks came to him.

Jungwon was crouched down on the bathroom floor hugging his knees.

"I-I m-miss y-you!" he choked out a sob "I miss you so much!" Jungwon cried his heart out.

He gripped the necklace imprinted 'JS' on it. He tugged on it so tight calling Jay's name. The silver metal left a cut on the back of his neck from the intense and violent pulling.

"Jongseongie" Jungwon's voice was soft and feeble. The pain in his neck un felt as the blood dripped down his back.

"why did you do this?"

"You're such a bad liar" Jay let out an airy laugh his breath lingering over Jungwon's cut "Spit it out!" Jay demanded through gritted teeth.

Jungwon continued frying eggs and ignored Jay which was a fickle mistake.

Jay slammed his fist on the kitchen counter next to Jungwon startling him again. Jungwon jumped again and the hot oil splashed on his arm causing him to wince in pain at the burning feeling.

However Jay didn't look like he cared. He bore those intimidating and deadly eyes through Jungwon.

Jungwon was about to go to the sink and soothe the pain but Jay grabbed the hand that was burnt by the oil.

"Ow!" Jungwon cried in pain tears building in his eyes at Jay's tight grip "It hurts" Jungwon tried hoping Jay would let go "please" he begged.

The hurt look Jungwon gave Jay broke him and brought him back to reality.

Jay rolled his eyes and let go off Jungwon who immediately went to the sink to wash his arm.

The warm water ran over the burn spot which surely left a nasty mark on his arm.

"Jungwon, I'm sorry but how can you think I'm cheating on you?" Jay asked looking at the younger who was looking at the burn.

He was so caught up in wanting to know who hurt his Jungwon that he didn't realize at the moment he was also hurting him physically but Jungwon jumped to silly conclusions and doesn't believe him.

" I don't care"

"That's it?" Jay looked at Jungwon confused "I apologized to you what more do you want huh?" Jay was furious and Jungwon squint his eyes shut at the loud voice ringing in his ear drum "You know you're not the same as back in college" Jay said a little more calm.

"What the fuck is that supposed to mean?" Jungwon asked now enraged, his fists clenched.

"It means the old Jungwon would be head over heels with anything I say now you're just so complicated!" Jay groaned.

"I am complicated?!" Jungwon laughed like a maniac " You're such a fucking hypocrite" Jungwon shouted "I guess it's true what they say. Nothing lasts forever"

"With you they don't" Jay mumbled turning away from Jungwon's sight.

"Guys what is- THE FOOD?!" Heeseung panicked and quickly went to take out the mini fire on the stove.

Jay and Jungwon seemed unfazed by this.

Jungwon pulled out his kitchen mittens and threw it at Heeseung "Hyung I'm going out" Jungwon announced leaving the kitchen when a voice was heard.

"So now you're cheating on me?" Jay asked in a bitter tone.

"Listen, if anyone is cheating here it's you!"Jungwon scolded Jay seriously and left.

"Wait Jungwon don't go out in your pajamas" Heeseung ran after Jungwon.

Sunghoon looked at Jay and sighed.

"Dude what's up?!" Sunghoon asked knowing it would only enrage the other but it's better than having Jay bottle his feelings up.

The simple question had Jay drop to his knees on the ground. Sunghoon's eyes grew wide and he immediately stooped to Jay's level.

"I miss him!" Jay cried out dropping to the floor unable to hold himself up anymore "He means so much to me Sunghoon. I didn't mean to hurt him I don't wanna lose him!" Jay cried.

"He's your fiance man. Don't let that slip okay? If he doesn't want to tell you something don't pressure him" Sunghoon patted Jay's back.

"But he used to tell me everything! What changed?!" Jay looked at Sunghoon with a tear stained face "what changed?" he repeated breaking down again.

"May be he lost his trust in you"