broken trust | k. o'reilly [ON HOLD]

[ twenty five ]

The following morning, I'm woken up by a phone ringing. I yawn and rub my face. I slept with my makeup on. My face probably hates me.

I feel beside me for Kyle but he's not there. I assume he's in the bathroom so I get up and walk over to my phone on the floor after wrapping myself in a blanket.

It's almost seven in the morning, and Dakota is calling me. She's called me a few times. I answer the phone. "Kota, it's almost seven in the morning over here. I know it's afternoon there but it's crack of dawn here," I say, slightly annoyed.

As I yawn, Dakota says, "I just got a call from Adam. Kyle just landed at Orlando International. I thought that you guys weren't supposed to come back until later in the week."

"We're not," I say slowly. That's when my heart drops into my stomach. Did he hear me last night when I said that he's going to be a great father in a few months? Internal panic begins to set in and my heart speeds up.

Dakota asks, "Then why is he back already? Did he say?"

I choke back tears as I say, "I thought he was asleep and I said he'd make a great father in a few months. I think he heard me."

I'm alone in Hawaii, across the country from anyone familiar. Kyla's probably already left for her honeymoon and I wouldn't want to put this on her the day after her wedding. Kyle just left me on an island in the middle of the Pacific Ocean.

Kota says, "Okay, I can hear the tears. It might not have even been that, Ry. He might not have heard you."

My breathing quickens and I ask, "What if he did? Kota, I can't lose him. I shouldn't have said that last night. I'm so stupid, oh my God." That's when the tears and sobs begin.

Dakota is quiet for a second before she says, "Okay, I know you won't but calm down, Rylee. Your head is going to worst case scenario. Everything's okay. Call him and talk to him."

"I can't," I gasp, a full-blown panic attack has started. "Kota, I can't breathe."

I should've known this would happen when I told him, but it wasn't how I wanted to tell him. I wanted to show him the ultrasound picture. I wanted him to know that I was excited to start a family with the man I loved.

Dakota is quiet again before she says, "Hold on. There was a knock on my door. Deep breathing, Rylee. Hold a pillow."

I do what Kota says. I sit on the bed, still wrapped in blankets. I hold a pillow, putting my phone on speaker. I cry into the pillow as I hear over the phone, "Why did you just leave her in Hawaii by herself? She's alone on an island away from us."

Kyle's there. Halfway across the world from me. I inhale sharply when I hear his voice. "I found this last night," Kyle says. "It must've fallen out of her bag or something when she was looking for something."

Dakota and Kyle are both quiet before she says, "You left her alone on an island in the middle of the ocean because of this. What the hell, Kyle?"

"I didn't know what to say to someone who's lied to me for what looks like several weeks," Kyle explains.

Kota immediately says, "You lied to her for nine months, Kyle. I don't want to hear it from you."

He says, "That's what she would've done if I didn't find the damn ultrasound picture. Tell me, when did she find out?"

Dakota sighs and says, "The day before her Takeover match. It was the conversation she had with Regal. She found out less than two weeks ago. She needed time to figure out how to tell you and this was the reason why."

I haven't stopped crying as I listen to their conversation. I hug my pillow tighter, wanting Kyle. I just want to be in Kyle's arms but he flew across the country, away from me.