ThE inFaMoUS LoVe StOrY

CHAPTER 38

Kritika's pov

"Stefan..Stefan",I kept calling him for nth time now.He was no where to be found.He said he wanted to shower,but when I checked in the bathroom he wasn't there as well. He wouldn't even pick my calls and I can't believe that he magically disappeared at 3 a.m.

Something in my head told that he must be around smoking. I'm quite sure that my instinct is hundred percent right....he is smoking somewhere.He is fine now,I mean he has battled his social anxiety and depression then why does he have to smoke.He is addicted to smoking then why hasn't he tried anything to get rid of that?He once said that he is clean of drugs and doesn't take them anymore and that his mom helped him in a certain way to get him off drugs.Why does he still smoke?May be it's because of the work and stress but it hurts me to the core whenever I catch him smoking and he knows that too. I'm sure he is not much of a drinker but smoking is not cool.

Lost in my own thoughts,I fell asleep on his bed and wasn't up until 10 a.m.

"Hey",I said as soon as I opened my eyes and saw him lying next to me.He was busy on his phone and was probably texting someone.

"Good morning love",he said in his thick morning accent.

"Where were you the whole night?",I asked him rubbing my eyes as I got up to my side of the bed.

"You don't wanna know",is what he said that pissed me off to the core.

"What do you mean by I don't wanna know?I wanna know",I was serious but kept my tone calm.

"I jus...

He was about to make an excuse because I could tell that from the look on his face,"Don't you tell me that you were out smoking and doing drugs the whole night and because of that obviously you'll have a problem  to fall asleep,so you chose not to show up ."

"But..

He wanted to explain something may be but I was on fire."Gosh!Look at your eyes,they are bloodshot...so red",I said padding the skin below his eyes."Why do you smoke?I mean why do you smoke a lot and by that I mean so addicted and now drugs??What's going on with you?Are you okay?",a tear escaped from my eyes and streamed down my cheek.He looked away and was trying to escape my eye contact and was probably pissed at me.

"I'm fine,it's just the pressure the writting, recording, wedding and everything",he said coldly.

"Don't get so overworked baby",that's all I could say.I placed a little peck on his forehead and pushed him to my side and wrapped my arms around his neck.He hugged me back and laid his chin on my shoulder and then gently sucked the skin on my neck.

"I'm sorry love",he whispered.

I pulled away and now we were face to face.

"You look pissed at me",I said.

"Hmm?",he was caught off guard by my statement.

"Are you pissed by what I said you know about everything I said?"

He smirked...the smirk that I have been missing for a while.That smirk gradually turned into a smile and now he was smiling for no reason.

"Yes I'm pissed but it feels good",he said and continued smiling like an idiot.

"I don't get you boy",I said as I got up from my bed and stood in front of the mirror combing my hair.

"It's just that I'm not used to this kind of care and scolding and whatever,it's kinda new and it feels good",he said as he stood behind me and pulled me closer by my waist.I could see the mischief in his red eyes as I looked at his reflection in the mirror.He then placed a soft kiss on my cheek.

"You know I have never been checked upon by someone and here you are pretending to be my little mother",I bursted out at that comment of his and couldn't contain my laugh.

"What?",I said still laughing as I looked at him.

"Yes you are being one",he said with full confidence and sort of complained.

"And you my daddy?",I said and turned around putting my arms around his shoulder while his arms were still around my waist.

"Hmm?Bad daddy?",he said and gave me that smirk.

"I kinda missed that little smirk of yours,you literally stopped smirking at me until today",I said and poked the tip of his nose with my comb.

"Ouch."

"Daddy did that hurt?",I made a puppy face and escaped from his tight grip and went straight to the bathroom and slammed the door behind him.

He knocked the door a few times but I turned a deaf ear to it.

"I'm sorry mommy.....it won't happen again and I gotta go now",he said from the other side.

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That afternoon we were busy in the wedding preparations and plus there was no shortage of guests pouring in and out so I helped Mrs.Wilson in hosting them.I haven't heard from Stefan since morning and probably he is at the venue checking on the preparations and stuff.He is probably having a busy day too.

"Someone is calling you",Violet screamed from the other end of the kitchen.

It was my mom and she absolutely has no idea of the bride.She knows that I'm staying here until Rahul's wedding and that's all she knows.She doesn't even know that I'm staying with Stefan and his family since the last few days and that we are sharing the same room now.I was overwhelmed with guilt after the minute I spoke to her.I was hiding so much from her and she will probably not like any of it and is gonna hate me for doing it in the first place.
Sorry mom!

There was a message from Stefan too.

Heyya.
Hope you are having a good day and that my family is not overworking you too much.
I'm sorry for last night love.
I was just not sane enough earlier to explain what I felt.
I'm not completely clean of drugs ,I mean I stopped consuming them for a year but then .....I know I'm stupid and I started doing drugs again....I have done a lot of stupid things anyway. I'm not an addict and I'm taking care to not become one again.
I'll try my best to avoid.
I don't wanna hurt you and hate seeing you shed tears.
....
For your eyes only:)
Good bye love!

"Love you Stef",I replied.

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Stefan's pov

I question my existence sometimes, I'm a loser anyway.I sometimes wonder how lucky I'm to get her even though I didn't deserve her and the best thing is she loves me back and cares like no one else.All this while,the world has made me realize how unlovable I'm.
May be I still am.
She made me feel like someone and not just the person fighting for a lost cause.She held my hand and led me out of darkness that swallowed me almost completely.
Can I trust myself for not breaking her heart ever?
Is she gonna forgive me after learning the massive things that I have been hiding from her all the while?
I'm sure that I love her enough to let her go if she wants to and that is never gonna change even if she leaves me for good.