Hope

chapter 18

Louis's POV

I walk into Claire's room to see Liam sitting on the couch on his phone. I sit down across from him. "Hey mate, what's up?" I ask him

"what?" 

"I asked what's up?" I lightly laugh. 

"Oh, I was just waiting for Claire to wake up."

"Oh, I was wondering, have you seen Josh lately, like he hasn't been around since Claire woke up from her coma, and i just wanted to see if he was alright, I haven't heard from him in awhile, have you?"

His eyebrows knit together and you can tell he was pondering over the question. "Come to think of it, no I haven't seen or heard from him." 

"I tried calling him but he hasn't answered his phone. I seriously hope he alright." I sigh and lay farther back into my chair. Liam sits up and puts his phone down on the coffee table in front of him. He opens his mouth as if he were to to say something then closes it. "Maybe he just doesn't want to be found. . or he might not be able to deal with what is going on right now, I honestly have no idea. I think it would just be best until we wait for him to come back here, and let him explain himself, instead of annoying him with question after question. Yeah?"

I sigh and nod agreeing with him. "I'm going to take a nap, I haven't slept since Claire woke up and that was two days ago." I chuckle. 

"Alright, I'm heading out gonna meet up with the lads for lunch. If you need anything, or if anything happens call me. Okay?" 

I mumble out an "Yea, mhm." considering im alright falling asleep. Liam softly chuckles and walks towards the door and closing it behind him.  

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I slowly stir from my sleep, hearing someone flushing the toilet and come out of the bathroom. Assuming it's probably Liam coming back from lunch. I open my eyes, and shield them instantly from the light shinning bright in my face. I hear a soft giggle come from my left and I know it's not Liam who is here, I mean unless something happened to his voice. 

"Hi." she says softly.

"Hey Claire, you're awake." 

"Mhm." She drops her head and looks at her feet. Why is she acting all shy, we are best fri- forgot she lost her memory. . ."Did I wake you?"

"No." I lie, I wouldn't mind if she woke me though. "Though I wouldn't mind if you did." I give her a small reassuring smile. She returns one too. She drops her head back down again, as if she is embarrassed.

"Come." I pat the spot next to me. She slowly drags her feet over here plopping down next to me. I can tell something is bothering her, so I ask. "What's wrong love?"

"I just-I feel- like-like I know you, but I can't put my finger on it." The sparkle in her eyes disappearing, being followed by sadness. 

"We do know each other, I know you better then you know yourself, and you know every little thing about me." I bring her closer to me, her head resting on my shoulder and my arm around her. Rubbing her arm to comfort her. I hear her sigh, and feel her snuggle closer into me. A small smile plays on my lips getting those butterflies in my stomach. . I'm such a girl. "Do you want me to explain how we are best friends." I felt her head nod signaling me to continue. . . and so i did, I told her everything; from how we first meet in preschool when she accidentally spilled milk on me, then later in first grade she drew all over me in marker, then in second grade she broke her arm because she wasn't being careful standing on a tall chair. - even though I told her not too - and then in third grade she lost her first tooth, in fourth grade I broke my leg falling off the monkey bars, fifth grade was starting to get bad she told me for the first time that her mother died from a brain tumor, and she was living with a psychotic father who always came home drunk and screaming making her brother and her do everything for them, he was abusive too, people called her mean names, or called her out on what she warred. At first she didn't mind at all through fifth grade, then came sixth grade, when people use to throw things at her, or call her even more names.. the teachers wouldn't do anything because they never saw anything happen,  then seventh grade was absolute hell, she was diagnosed with depression, and she started cutting herself, I told her parents about it because I wanted to get her all better. . but she told me she hated me for doing it, so they sent her to the hospital, and she didn't come back until eight grade, the rest of seventh grade was hard for me too, because when she left everyone who was rude and mean to Claire would do the exact to me I then learned that my parents were very ill, so that's why my grandparents moved in so they could take care of me while my parents got better,  and I too started cutting and no one noticed, or even cared, but I wanted it like that..but I was worse then her because I had developed an eating disorder, I completely stopped eating. When she came back from the hospital she was better then ever, and it didn't take long for her to find out that their was something wrong with me, I ;then told her every little detail, but I didn't go to the hospital because my parents couldn't afford it. Claire's dad didn't want to pay for me either because he didn't get a rats ass about anyone but himself. I stopped cutting myself towards the end of eighth grade year, I still wouldn't eat though, but from time to time I would eat small things, ninth grade year I started eating a bit, I was quite skinny and Claire had said that I looked dead, the only reason why I started eating was because she had told me if I don't start to eat then she isn't eating. I couldn't let her get herself in danger, and I realized I liked Claire.. it hit me like a ton of bricks. I think i started liking her in sixth grade, but never really realized what that feeling was. I never told Claire about my feelings for her though, and I don't think I will. nothing major happened in ninth grade, I mean besides her father. Tenth grade year the most wonderful thing happened, her father had left her and her brother Josh, they had moved in with me until josh turned eighteen and moved out with Claire. They lived close by so I was thankful that I didn't loose my best friend. Josh and I become like brothers. eleventh grade was hard because of school getting harder on us. Nothing big happened to us, thank god. Twelfth grade wasn't easy, but it wasn't hard either. Josh, Claire and I had taken a road trip to California for Christmas break, and went camping in the woods. It was so peaceful, and relaxing. At the end of twelfth grade year towards graduation time, Claire got a full ride scholarship to her dream college here in London, I on the other hand didn't go to college I didn't have the money for it. She was doing very good in college, and she had managed to get her own little condo close to the college. . . and then i told her that she was on her break for thanksgiving for college, and it was the first day off. I had called her up and asked if she wanted to go to Nandos for lunch, and instead of driving we should walk because it was only 5 minutes away. I chocked up on the last parts saying that while we were walking to Nandos you must've not been paying attention to where you at, and a car hit you and that's how she ended up here. I left out the part about that it was the person who had hit her was Liam. I couldn't do that to a friend. I mean he was hurting as much as I was. I had told her that ever since she had accidentally spilled milk on me in preschool we have been inseparable. "We were like salt and pepper, peanut butter and jelly, mustard and ketchup. I'm glad you're my best friend Claire, and if it take forever to get your memory back I will be their every step of they way, no matter what." I turn to look at her, and she just gives a small nod. I motion her to come her and I embrace her in a hug. "I will never let anything happen to you." I whisper so she doesn't hear me. I give her a kiss on the head, and tell her to get some rest. 

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