SWEETHEART || nathan blair x reader

C H A P T E R F O U R T E E N

tw- use of drugs (marijuana)

once i had gotten in jaedin's car i slowly looked over to nathan i felt bad, but i mean that's what he gets for going with my best friend to a party.

"hey you okay?" jaedin asked, starting the car.

"yeah i just feel bad that's all," i told him, quickly looking away from nathan.

"don't he's an asshole remember," jaedin scoffed, keeping his eyes on the road.

"yeah.. i know," i softy mumbled, i know he's not an asshole but the way he's been acting lately has, made it seem like he is.

"hey, it's okay you have me now," jaedin reassured me putting his hand on my thigh, i gave him a small smile before looking out the window. however i couldn't stop thinking about him, he was just always in my mind, it's like he consumed my thoughts. just even the mention of his name, was enough to make my stomach erupt in butterflies. i don't know why i care so much but i do...

after 10 minutes of driving we arrived to a sketchy looking house.

"where are we?" i questioned kinda scared.

"don't worry i'm not going to kill you or anything, we are at my friends house," jaedin says getting out of the car, i hesitantly followed. when we entered the house, smoke was everywhere, the smell of weed filled my senses, i wafted the smoke from my face. if my mom smelled this on me she would kill me.

"hey bro, you wanna smoke. who da girl?" the guy on the couch asked.

"nah bro i gotta drive home, this is my girl," jaedin replied, i felt kinda weird when he called me 'his girl'  and it wasn't weird in a good way either. it made me uncomfortable but i wasn't going to look to much into it.

"hey babe you wanna smoke," the guy on the couch asked handing me the rolled blunt.

"um i don't know my mom would kill me if she smelled it on me." i told him. i didn't want to get grounded for life, im already in enough trouble as it is i really don't need anymore.

"come on not even one hit, i grow it myself ain't nothing bad in here." he pushed the blunt closer to my face. i backed up a bit feeling uncomfortable.

"come on it's just one hit it will wear off as the day goes on," jaedin snapped, grabbing the blunt from the mans hands.

"jaedin i don't really know i just don't want to get in trouble," i gulped, i was thinking of every possible thing that could go wrong right now.

"oh my fucking god live a little," jaedin sneered, lighting the blunt, before placing it in between my fingers. before thinking i put it up to my mouth inhaling, i tried to hold it but ended up coughing, jesus what the fuck is wrong with me. i'm going to be in deep shit...

"jesus finally," jaedin and the guy on the couch both clapped, i wasn't really feeling anything after a few more seconds went by, i started feeling light headed.  this was so weird.

"how do you feel babe," jaedin spoke to me placing his hand on my lower back.

"i feel pretty good, i'm hungry can we go now?" i asked him, i felt like my stomach was empty.

jaedin chuckled, "yeah we can, bye man it was nice talking to you," we walked out the door and entered the car, so many things were going through my mind and for a second i forgot about nathan. until images and the sound of his voice flooded my mind, now i wasn't really liking being high, my body broke out in a cold sweat my eyes felt so heavy.

i woke up to someone talking, i opened my eyes to see jaedin talking on the phone.

"yeah mom, i'll be home," jaedin rolled his eyes, speaking to his mom on the phone. after a few more words they both said their goodbyes.

"hey uh bad news i have to take you home, my mom wants me home yeah sorry," he announced taking a drag of what i assumed to be a cigarette.

"oh okay, wait shit do you have anything spray in here so my mom won't smell it on me?" i asked worried.

"uh yeah but you'll have to smell like me," he smirked, before handing me his axe body spray. i sprayed it on me. god this shit does not smell that great, well i know what i'm going to do when i get home now. after driving in silence we finally arrived at my house, i quickly got out and said goodbye he waved as he drove off. i looked to nathan's house, just as i did i saw him walk outside with a trash bag. however as soon as he saw me he stopped, we stared at eachother for a few seconds before i broke eye contact and went inside. thank god no one was home, i quickly ran upstairs and entered my room.

i flopped on my bed closing my eyes, wishing for the day to be over. i awoke to banging on my door, i quickly got up and opened it.

"i've been trying to call you, you never texted me to let me know you were home!" she yelled.

"mom i'm sorry i didn't feel good so jaedin dropped me off early," well it wasn't a total lie i felt like complete shit right now.

"just next time please text me or call me, so i don't think you're dead in a ditch somewhere," she stated putting her hand on her forehead.

"okay i will," i reassured her, before shutting my door, well that went better than expected. i can't believe i did that, i was a little disappointed but at least now i know how it feels. i grabbed some clothes and walked out of my room, before i felt a hard pull on my arm.

"holy shit are you fucking high?!" fia exclaimed in surprise.

"what no! and keep it down!" i whisper yelled.

"oh my fucking god you are, your breath has the faint smell of it, and your pupils are dilated!" fia laughed.

"please don't tell mom or dad," i begged her i really didn't want to be grounded for life...

"i won't but you have to do me a favor, i need you to add this girl i like on snap and see if she's interested in anyone," fia asked me.

"yes of course, just give me her snap." i let out a breath of relief, thank god it was just that.

after adding the girl, who's name is rue on snap and finding out as much as i could i finally got into the shower, i suddenly got this overwhelming feeling of sadness, as i looked in the mirror i felt disgusting. i quickly pushed it all away and got my shower, after getting out and getting dressed i brushed my teeth.

i had decided on sitting outside for a little bit, to clear my head. i sat on the step looking at the stars, i heard the door opening and i looked over to see nathan, doing the exact same thing as me. after a few minutes of silence i finally decided to say something.

"you can be a real dick sometimes, you know that?"

"i know, i'm sorry...for everything." he sighed a deep sigh, i felt really bad, i could tell he was really hurting just by the sound of his voice.

"don't be." and with that last word i got up leaving him outside all alone...

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a/n- thank you so much for reading, i know i haven't updated in a while but i had to take a break and work on my mental health. i feel a lot better now and hopefully i'll be back to updating :) how do you guys feel about this chapter? i didn't really think it was that good but oh well😅 have a good day/ night!

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