SWEETHEART || nathan blair x reader

C H A P T E R S E V E N T E E N

the tears falling down my cheeks where masked by the raindrops, that seemed to get harsher by the second. i kept walking along the road, not quite sure where i was going but i just needed to clear my head. today has been a mess, and i don't want to go back to my father and mother screaming at me, all over some stupid shit that happened in the past. whatever happened don't involve them.. i just wish i could disappear.

i sighed, the familiar sound of a certain engine came form behind me. shit.

"hey beautiful, you know it's not nice to leave someone that brought you to a party alone." jaedin said coldly, who the fuck does he think he is.

"you where the one the left me remember asshole!" i turn to face him i was livid. i have had enough of other's shit.

"i went to get you a drink, then i come back and it turns out you went with nathan, alone in a room?" he smirked at me, how does he know? does anyone else know?

"it wasn't even like that we just talked." i said seriously, i don't want anyone thinking that im easy.

"yeah with what his dick in your mouth." he scoffed. yeah i can't hold it back anymore..

"listen here! me and nathan didn't even kiss let alone us have sex, maybe if you weren't so worried about putting your dick in every girl you see, then maybe, just maybe somebody will actually like your pathetic sorry ass!" i was done, he will be the last person to disrespect me ever. he looked at me speechless, i smiled at him before running down the road.

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i ran until the burning in my lungs intensified and i couldn't run anymore, i sat on the side of the road regaining my breath, letting the cool rain drops fall against my skin once i had regained my breathing, i thought for a second, couldn't believe this was happening i should of known not to get to attached to him. I just wish he knew that his past doesn't matter to me it's who he is now that matters. Ugh..there I go again thinking about him it's like he's infected my brain every thought is about him, every dream it's like I can't escape myself.

I sighed 'okay y/n it's time to stop feeling so bad about yourself and do something about it' i thought as i stood up gathering myself together deciding to walk the rest of the way home.

By the time I had gotten home the rain was coming down harder than before, making it look I just jumped into a pool with all my clothes on...great. I looked over at Nathan's window observing the dark blue curtains that hung, as if on cue the curtain was pulled back to reveal Nathan. Now I really want to disappear, I stood in shook for a second not knowing how to react before breaking eye contact with him and heading into my house. God I was so embarrassed  now it's really going to look like I stalk him.

"Hey what's wrong?" Fia asked with concern in her eyes. I opened my opened my mouth to speak but the only thing that came out where sobs, I just felt so broken inside I couldn't keep it in any more.

fia pulled me in for a hug, "hey it's going to be okay, what happened?"

I took a few deep breaths before answering trying to keep my sobs in, "after our fight I texted Nathan to get me out, we went up to this amazing place and we kissed twice. It was amazing." I took a deep breath before continuing, feeling the lump in my throat getting worse, "t-then our parents called he got super weird after and i asked what was wrong as we where walking down the hill, and he said that we couldn't be together bc of his past and he's scared of what dad will do." My voice cracking at the end making the tears flow.

"Listen if he lets what our dad says and what happened before you get in the way, then maybe you just need to try and not talk to him anymore, everytime you do you end up crying or wasted." Fia says putting her hand on my shoulder, I couldn't believe what she just said I mean she wasn't wrong I just didn't want to hear it right now, especially when she knows nothing about him. I quickly slapped her hand off my shoulder and bolted to my room, screaming into my pillow crying.

I am just so frustrated by everything Fia, my dad, Nathan, the world. Hell is a teenage girl.

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The bell rang piercing my ears, I sat watching the clock as the muffled sounds of students laughter and chatting filled the air. I sighed before putting my other headphone in and Turning the music to full blast exiting the classroom, it had been almost 2 weeks since I lasted talked to Nathan. It's not like he had made much effort to show that he wanted to talk, he just walks in the other direction everytime he sees me. But since me and fias fight I have been trying to get over him...but it's not working. I feel the warm sun over my face as I exit the school, but yet I still feel cold inside ther-

"Hey y/n! Me and harry are going to the movies tonight you want to come? Maddi said that she would meet us there!" Zora excitingly asked putting her hands onto my shoulders, I turned my music down just enough so I could hear her.

"Uh, probably not tonight sorry I'm just not feeling it." I gave her a side smile. I just wanted to go rot in my bed as of right now.

"Come on y/n you have been m.i.a for almost two weeks, the most we get out of you is 'I'm just not feeling it' me and maddi miss our best friend." Zora spoke.

"It's just-" before I could get out anything zora spoke again, "before you try and give me an excuse, me and harry will all be there at six to pick you up." She gave me a smile before walking away. Well...great.

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(A/n)- FINALLYYY UPDATEDD! Sorry it took so long I'm in the process of writing another chapter should be published soon!! Thank you all for reading! Have an amazing week everyone!