Blind Colors(Tododeku)

5

Izuku's POV

Cold

I shivered as a cold swept into me.I curdled deeper into myself.

Where was I?

I felt around myself to feel the familiar softness of my bed.
"H-hello,"I stuttered before a horrible cough ran through my throat.Once I was able to calm down I tried to think about what happened.

I remember falling in the river, Todoroki helping me and then...
I strained my memory to try to remember what happened, only bits and pieces coming back.I blushed as I remembered pressing myself against him.I cringed at the idea of how clingy I was because of my fever.

I should apologize to him...

I muttered before realizing quickly that I was alone in my room.I felt around again and felt nothing but the soft blankets.A slow and deliberate panic ran through my body.I felt my breathing quicken and my heart race.I felt the once clear flow of oxygen throughout my body shift.I tried to pull myself out of this sudden panic attack but all I could muster was a small pause in breathing before the rapid inhaling and exhaling shortened my breath.The black void around me made it worse.This pitch blackness that swallowed me....I forgot just how tantalizingly scary it is.To be consumed in this void.

I felt warmth coat my body and I tried to cling to that.Like it was the only thing that would keep me a float in the never ending sea of despair.It felt like I could breath once more.Once I was calm I realized that this warmth, was the warmth of Todoroki.He was hugging me.I blushed as my face heated before I pulled away his strong grip loosening.
"Are you okay?"He asked softly as if any harsh words would break me.
"Sorry..."I breathed as I leaned my head against his shoulder."...sorry..."I whispered out again and I felt the reminisce of the earlier panic wash through me.
"What caused you to panic so strongly..?"He asked in a more soft voice, his tone was almost like a soft cotton that fluffed, and that could be weaved in to the most silkiest fabric.
"...it's so easy now....to feel alone...I can only see this pitch black void...."I swallowed as a pit of sadness welled in to me."....it scares me..."my voice broke and I couldn't tell if it was because of my fever or if the emotions I felt were waring on my voice.Todoroki tightened his hold on me.
"Midoriya I...can I help you...feel less alone...?"He asked and his voice was soft and gentle as it reached with it sincerity and kindness and hugged my cold heart.Warming it.

"...thank...you.."I said as a bittersweet feeling ran through me.Once we calmed down Todoroki led me to the kitchen.
"I was making breakfast before but...it seems I don't have much experience with cooking.."He said and I just smiled.
"That's fine,"I said with a small smile.
"Since your mother left earlier she luckily left breakfast and I just made some tea to go along with it,"He said and I nodded.He handed me a warm mug.He gradually helped me in tilting the mug up to my lips as I tasted the nice mild sweetness of the hot beverage.The temperature revived my throat and helped ease the growing pain of my muscles having my immune system recover from my prior fever.Once I had enough of the tea, Todoroki helped me in eat leaving me to do the rest after I got the hang of it.
"I'm sorry I'm such an inconvenience,"I said once I finished eating.
"Your not, I like taking care of you like this,"He said and I just shook my head.
"Yes bu-!"
"No buts! As I told you, I want to help you.So let me,"He said and I was shocked before I collected myself.
"Thanks,"I said before a long yawn ran through my chest.
"Are you tired?"Todoroki asked and I nodded.I felt my eyes hurt more making it hard to feel comfortable.I heard a screech then another.A chair was being moved then back into place.I looked over to the sound, suspecting it to be Todoroki before a hand clasped itself on to my cheek.
"Do your eyes hurt?"He asked and I almost jumped at the suddenness of the question.
"Ah!!Well...how did you know?"I asked as I almost fell off my chair at the shock of him being so close.
"Your eyes, they look a lot more strained then usual,"He said and my stomach churned at "usual".It was already becoming the "norm".I looked away quickly before sighing.
"My eyes...haven't fully recovered so I...it starts to hurt when I'm near places with a lot of light,"I say.There's a quiet shift in the atmosphere once the information was starting to be processed.
"Sorry...I had no idea..."he said and his voice sounded regretful.
"No, it's fine,"I sighed."I'd rather...well....I'd rather do something fun today, okay?"I asked changing the topic.I looked away from where I suspected Todoroki to be as I gave off the most genuine smile I could but...the truth is...