Blind Colors(Tododeku)

6

Izuku's POV
It's been a couple weeks since me and Todoroki set up this arrangement of him helping me.It still shocks me that he's going to be by my side 24/7.I would be thinking about it more but my mind keeps going to school.I keep telling Todoroki, Aizawa, and All Might that I'll go soon but I end up chickening out.It's becoming a real problem.My anxiety runs high at the thought of having to tell my classmates about my condition.It kills me to think that they'll think of me as lesser then them.But if I was being logical the only one who would think about me like that would be Bakugo but even then I think he just might be mad I didn't tell him sooner.We're rivals but now that I'm at this brick wall I can't tell where I'll be going from here.If only I...If only I was...just..!...just...!
"riya!Midoriya!!"I snapped my head up in alertness to the sound of Todoroki yelling my name.
"Y-yeah?"I asked hoping my face didn't show any emotions I wanted to hide.
"Are you okay?"He asked and I felt his hand on my check, one thing he's been doing more often now.I presume it's to tell me that he's with me, by my side, but it also could just be him concerned over my health.
"I'm fine, sorry, I was stuck in my head,"I said with a sigh recalling that I was in the living room with Todoroki who was watching something on the tv and I must have dozed off in thought.
"Are you still worried about the dorms?"He asked referring to Aizawa giving us the chance to set up at the dorms tonight.I swallowed thickly my stomach churned and it felt like I was going to be sick.
"Sorry, I keep panicking..."I said looking away from where I thought Todoroki was from the direction of his voice.
"No, it's fine, if you change your mind then I won't blame you,"He said and I felt guilty for a moment as the realization crossed me that not only was I being selfish but Both of us were going to be behind if we stayed like this any longer.
"I can't.Even if I wanted to I can't.Not only me but you too, we'll be left behind if we don't catch up with our classmates.I want to be a hero so I should suck it up and get going!"I said trying to pump myself up more than anything.The confidence slowly deflated though as the Anxiety creeped back in.I sighed the burst of confidence dying out.
"I know, I can't help you avoid this, but, at least know, I'll be by your side,"Todoroki said and I felt the confidence that was slowly dripping away creep back in.
"Thanks!"I said with a big grin a happiness that hugged me and let my muscles relax into this warm safe buzz.

No matter what happened

Todoroki would be by my side...

And before I knew it.We were in the car ride to the dorms.Todoroki helped me pack my clothing and some medication that the doctor gave me for any pain in my eyes.I used the medication sparingly and only used it when the pain was truly bothersome, since the medication would knock me out within a couple minutes.My mother drove us and the car ride was quite.I leaned against the cool glass of the window.Todoroki was inches away from me his weight pushing against the car seat as he shifted slowly before settling.Anxiety was still clear in my heart and it felt suffocating.I was tense and it was hard to think straight until I felt a warm hand on mine.
"I'm here,"Todoroki whispered into my ear and my lips quirked up as a surge of happiness flew into my heart.
"Thank you,"I said in my own whisper my heart slowly calming.That was, until the car slowed to a stop.My body regained the tightness of the anxiety.I heard a squeak before small noises and then a warm hand on my shoulder.
"I'll support you for as long as I can Izuku, but, you should be so, so, careful this time, or I'll be forced to bring you back,"My mother warned her voice hoarse as she rubbed my shoulder in comfort, even though her voice rang with a warning and fear.
"I will be,"I said with a nod.I couldn't lie to her, I couldn't tell her that I would be fine, I couldn't even tell her that I'd find a way to get my sight back.All I could do was reassure her anxiousness.
"I'll keep him safe,"Todoroki said his voice rough and I heard my mother whimper before she squeezed my shoulder again.
"You two, go be hero's,"She said and once she did we left the car.Slamming the door shut and leaving the comforting warmth of the car to the cold night air.We were hopeful that we would miss most of our classmates to try and get comfortable in the dorms rooms without any interactions.But we ended up finding that, that was a meaningless effort.As soon as Todoroki opened the door I could hear footsteps coming toward us.
"Todoroki what are you doing here so la-?!"I heard someone start to ask before they must have noticed me."Midoriya!!"They screamed and I recognized the voice to be Ashido.She was screaming and telling everyone to come over.I was tense and tried to hide behind Todoroki like a little kid.We walked in slowly and I heard a crowd of footsteps.
"Midoriya!MIDORIYA!!"I heard people yelling my name and I was tense and I could feel a stinging in my eyes.I wanted to tell them, I did but...
"It's late, and he's probably tired so..."Todoroki started and made everyone quiet.
"Sorry!!"Everyone yelled and if I could see them I would probably see them bowing.
"T-thanks,"My voice was hoarse and I felt my mouth creep up into a smile."Th-thanks for waiting,"I said and I smiled trying to make it as visible as possible for them.There was silence as we walked away.We went into the elevator and I felt myself slump to the floor my face burying into itself.I breathed out shakily as tears started pouring.I heard Todoroki slump down too.
"I know,"He whispered."I know,"His hand rubbed against my back as I sobbed.
"I can't keep lying to them...."I whimpered."..it's not fair..."I whispered as my sobs settled into a hiccuping mess.Todoroki led me to what I assumed to be my dorm room.He helped me get to my bed.He sat down with me as I laid down on his lap.I pressed my face against his chest as I cried.The only feeling I got was his warm fingers, combing my messy green hair.