Blood painted her pale, shaking hands.
There was blood on her gray clothes,
Hell there was blood even on the carpet.
Warm tears were sliding down her cheeks
As she was looking at her crimson stained hands.
She couldn't belive herself.
She broke a promise that she made.
It all happend in a moment of unconsciousness,
In a moment when her lucidity was gone,
Just like everything good inside her.
She needed to feel something,
She wanted to feel anything,
Even if it was pain.
She felt so empty and numb.
It was just like an endless void,
That she was trying to fill.
Now, she was frozen in her place,
Sitting in the thick darkness that was arround her.
Every now and then a sob or a whimper would escape her mouth,
You could hear them only if you were close enough.
It was like, she was whispering,
Not wanting to disturb anyone that might be arround her,
Even if, in that moment she was alone.
In those moments of consuming silence,
She could hear a laugh.
A laugh that was so loud, so powerful, one could guarantee that she wasn't alone in the room.
But she was, well at least physically.
Mentally, her brain was crowded again,
All those voices from her past were now laughing at her.
They were mocking her.
It was like she returned back in time,
To her 14 years old self,
But she didn't, not only that it wasn't possible,
But she never wanted to go through that again.
She wasn't the 14 years old child now,
She's almlst 20 now,
With her life falling appart again, just like how it happend back then.
Covering her ears, she begged them to stop,
Only to make them grow louder and louder,
Till she collapsed,
Her eyes were red and puffy form all the crying now,
More tears pouring down her face,
She was hopeless again.
