" Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6"
AXEL's POV.
When I came home I still carried the anger and sadness in my heart, but it seemed like it got worse when I got home ...
Pagbukas ko palang ng pinto naabutan ko na sila tiyang Marie na naghahapunan na.
"Siguraduhin mo lang talaga na yang pag-uwi mo ng gabi may pera kang maiiaambag sa pamamahay na ito" Sabi ni tiyang na ikinahinto ko ng pag-hakbang.
Magkapatid sila ni Papa pero no'ng nawala siya, but when he disappeared, Aunt Marie and I were living with them. I also forgot that I had a mother because she cheated on us and went with her other men.
But since Papa passed away, I haven't felt any love because I don't feel that way about them either. I'm his niece but she treats me like a different person. After all, every day I receive hurtful words from her.
Almost all of the hurtful words she has already said ...
"Kailan ka mabibigyan ng sweldo sa pag-shoshooting mo?" Sabi nito na may laman pa ang bibig.
"Auntie, kakabigay ko lang po sa inyo ha? Wag niyo sabihin sa'kin na, inubos niyo lang sa bisyo niyo--"
Hindi pa ako nakakapag-period sa salita ko, tumayo at hinampas niya ang kutsara sa lamesa na ikinagulat din ng mga anak niya.
" Hoy! Kulang pa yun kaysa sa pagpapatira ko sayo dito sa bahay ko ng tatlong taon! Bakit!? Ano nga ba yung pinagmamalaki mo,huh!? Eh wala ka namang kwenta dito sa bahay ko! Kaya kitang palayasin kahit kailan ko gusto!"
"Ba't di niyo gawin? At isa pa, tama ba yung narinig ko? PAMAMAHAY NIYO?... Yung pagkakaalam ko, sa amin ito." Tugon ko.
"In fact, Auntie, you owe us even more. You took money from Papa's account that he didn't know about ... Isn't that called theft? "I added
"Bastos kang bata ka!--" Dinig ko pa sa sinabi niya dahil tumalikod na ako sa harapan niya.
***
I left the house because the anger I was feeling was getting worse. Everywhere I go, there are still things that make me hate. I can't help but think, Why doesn't the problem seem to be bothering me? Many questions formed in my mind ... That Why do I have to lose Papa? Why do I have to hang out with people who always hurt you? Why was this life situation given to me?
Hatred...
Sadness...
Suffers...
Loneliness...
Mas pipiliin ko nalang na sana... Hindi nalang ako nabuhay sa mundo. Kung ganito lang yung itinadhana sa'kin, sana Hindi nalang ako nabuhay.
It was as if I were trapped in a dark room full of pain. That no matter what I do to desire the light, it seems like it is still moving away ... If there was only medicine for how I was feeling, I would buy all the stacks I just healed..
BINABASA MO ANG
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SpiritualDEMONS DOESN'T WANT YOU TO READ THIS BOOK! This is the story of a young woman named Sebby Ventura. She is a follower of Christ. She has this raging fire; a fire that is solely dedicated for the ministry of the Lord. But a challenge came upon her...
