Stray Kids Oneshot - Suffering

Intro

My name is Y/N, Kang Y/N. I'm 20 years old and have been depressed for about 6 years now. I have 8 amazing best friends who are my only source of happiness. The only reason why I smile is because of them, nothing else. We've been friends for 4 years now and are really close, but no matter how close we are, I will never tell them know about my mental health, especially Bang Chan. Let me tell you about them.

Bang Chan is a very helpful, hardworking, and supportive person. You can instantly get comfortable with him. He can somehow always tell if somethings wrong. He has such a sweet soul and is very protective of his friends. He always gives advice for anything and everything you can think of, he's literally the sweetest person I've ever met.

Lee Minho is very cute and scary in a way. One second he's cute then the next he has a dead face. Not that I don't like it, I love everything about him, but his duality confuses me sometimes. Minho is different from the group, he's usually very chill and relaxed but when he's energetic, there's no way of stopping him. Btw his apple hair is EVERYTHING

Changbin can come off scary at first but he's a BIG softie. He's so adorable and caring, sometimes I wonder if he's actually 22. Other than he being adorable, he can rap really fast, and when I say fast, I mean fast. He aegyo is so cute, I just wanna pinch his cheeks. (I'm talkin bout the cheeks on his face, get ur head out the gutter) Changbin is one of the cutest things I've ever seen in my life.

Hyunjin is so beautiful, I can barely believe he's real. He's tall, has good features, is talented, has a good body, and an outstanding personality. I mean, what more can a girl want? He's my drama llama, my overdramatic king, anything that you can think of that is dramatic. I just love his dramatic-ness, it makes him so special. (YoU mAkE mE fEeL sPeCiAL)

Jisung is also different from the group in some type of way. He's very loud and energetic but likes quiet places and is chill whenever he wants. Jisung is the crackhead of the group and will forever be. He finna make comedians broke by how funny he is. He has very strong features that make him look so beautiful in every way possible.

Felix is the sunshine of the group, the ball of light to every darkness. His beautiful smile is one of the prettiest things I've ever seen. He has such a pure soul and I find that very cute about him. LET ME TELL YOU SIS- his voice doesn't not match his face at all. You'd think he has somewhat of a high pitched tone because of his face but nO. His voice is really deep and low, lower than my grades if that's even possible. I told him to give me his secret tiktok account but he wouldn't tell me *scoff*. His freckles are so cute, I can barely take it

Seungmin is a very cute and humble person. He considers himself as the "normal person of the group" but we all know that's a lie. His facial features are so cute, he looks like a puppy. He can be a savage sometimes and can roast the *curses* out of anyone. Other than that, he is very sweet and caring. He loves taking photos and hanging them up as memories. He will take his camera everywhere, even if we're going to a restaurant, I don't mind though, he takes breathtaking pictures.

Jeongin is soooo cute, I know I shouldn't baby him too much since I'm only 8 days older but I can't help it, he's just too cute to not compliment. Don't let his beautiful face fool you though, he can literally turn the table upside down in a heartbeat. His duality is scary sometimes, but I love it. His smile can cure anything. He won't stop teasing me about being short though, he doesn't realize that I can bite his ankles.