Stray Kids Oneshot - Suffering

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I stopped before I could get the pills into my mouth. "I should buy them something and spend time with them before I leave...just for memories." I sighed, putting the pills back in their container. I walked out the bathroom, acting as if nothing happened. I went to my room and grabbed my wallet, stuffing it into my pocket. I made my way to the front door but was immediately asked by Bang Chan.

Bang Chan: "Where are you going?"

Me: "I'm just going to the store."

Bang Chan: "Do you need anyone to go with you?"

Me: "No, I'll be fine."

Bang Chan: "Alright, be safe. If anything happens then call us. I'll be checking up on you."

Me: "Okay."

I made my way out the house happily, knowing that he didn't suspect anything. I walked to the mall, which wasn't far, and went into different stores, searching for something they would like. I came across friendship hoodies that came in 8. Without hesitation, I bought all of them. I stuffed them into a bag, knowing I won't regret this. I walked around the mall for another hour or so, until I came across a jewelry shop. I went inside, searching for something that would be special. I saw rings, bracelets, and necklaces, yknow, the usual.

I bought 8 of each jewelry, finally feeling that my day was over. The ring said "Best friends forever" on the inside. The bracelet said all their names on each one so they would know which one is theirs. The necklace said "STAY with you" when put together and it formed into a heart. Yes, I paid extra for it to be customized but I didn't care that I spent over $5000 on them, I wouldn't care if I spent millions of dollars on them, all I cared about was making memories, even if they didn't care that I died, I would still be glad if they remembered me somehow.  My heart stung and my eyes watered.

"Why am I crying?" I said and chuckled, wiping the tears that escaped from my eyes. I made my way home, I couldn't help but think of the memories we've made throughout the years. All of the times we've went to the amusement parks and all the laughs we've had was enough to make me cry. I would take millions of bad days if it meant I still had them. They're so special to me, they're the distraction I need when I feel depressed. I was then kicked out of my thoughts by someone calling me. I grabbed my phone from my back pocket and answered without looking at their ID.

OTP

"Hello?"

"Hey, are you coming back yet? Do you need me to come get you?"

"I'm fine, I don't need you to come get me and, yes I'm coming right now."

"Alright, call us if anything happens, okay?"

"Okay, bye Chan."

"Bye Y/N."

End of OTP

He ended the call as I continued walking towards our house. I was holding a total of five bags, two for the hoodies (four in each bag), one for the rings, one for the bracelets, and one for the necklaces. The hoodies were pretty heavy and I was getting tired quickly. "Maybe I should call him."

"You're so lazy. You can't even carry 5 bags. Do you not know how much they suffer because of you? Gosh you're such a burden. Keep walking, you need to loose some weight too, fatass. You couldn't even kill yourself properly, you're so useless."