Stray Kids Oneshot - Suffering

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⚠️ATTEMPTED SUICIDE⚠️

Changbin: "What's this?" He asked, touching the bandage and putting pressure on it. I winced a little, making him concerned.

Changbin: "I'm so sorry! Did I hurt you? Are you okay?" I chuckled to hide the pain I was feeling.

Me: I'm okay, I just fell earlier."

Changbin: "You fell on your thigh?"

Me: "I know right! It's so weird how I got injured on my thigh." I tried to hide the desperation of getting out of this conversation but Changbin wasn't having any of it.

Changbin: "How did you fall? Where did you fall? Was someone there with you? Why didn't they catch you? Why-" I stopped him and giggled.

Me: "I'm fine, relax. It's only just a scratch, it'll heal in no time." In all honesty, I don't know when my cuts will heal, maybe a few weeks or so?

Me: "Let's just go to sleep, I'm getting tired." I said while yawning. He just nodded his head, nuzzle into my neck and closed his eyes. I closed my eyes too, hoping that he would get off that topic for while and won't tell the others. And before I knew it, I was in dreamland.

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I woke up to a loud bang coming from the kitchen. I quickly got up, going to check what it was, worrying it would've been one of the members falling and hurting their head somewhere. When I got to the living room, I noticed the noise came from the kitchen. I quickly ran there, only to be face to face with Jisung sitting on the floor with flour all over him. He pouted like a baby, making me laugh loudly.

Jisung: "Y/N-ieee, help me!" He pleaded with puppy-like eyes which I couldn't resist.

Me: "You would've been dead already if Chan heard you." I said while giggling and helping him off the floor. He just snickered and dusted flour out of his face. I ruffled his hair, making some flour fall out.

Me: "You can go wash your face, I'll clean this up." He thanked me with a hug and made his way to his room to go wash himself. I looked at the pile of flour on the floor, thankfully it wasn't a whole lot.

After cleaning it, I noticed Jisung has already set out the ingredients for pancakes. "Why not make it for him, he may be tired." I thought to myself before swiftly creating the batter.

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After breakfast (which I didn't eat), I went to the bathroom to check on my wounds. I locked the bathroom door and pulled my pants down, unwrapping the bandage on my thigh. It looked red and slightly swollen, the pain stung when I touched it. I could tell that I bled a little due to the blood on the bandage.

"You should just kill yourself. Nobody would care, nobody would even notice you're gone, that's how much they hate you. They're wishing for you to get out of their lives. They hate seeing your face and hearing your voice. Your laugh is so ugly. They want you to die, believe me."

I cried as I thought about them talking badly about me. "They don't hate me...right? We've been friends for years, they can't possibly talk bad about me without feeling a little guilty...right? I've always looked up to them, they're like brothers to me. Do they really want me to die?"

"Y/N, hurry, I'm gonna pee myself!" I heard Felix yell from the other side of the door. I quickly put the bandage back on, flushed the toilet, and washed my hands, making it seem like I used the bathroom. I opened the door to see Felix holding in his down there while lightly jumping from foot to foot. I moved out the way, watching him run inside and slam the door behind him. I'm not sure if he locked it but it's not my problem.