joji.
stella has been teething all day which had caused excess crying for hours.
mia had finally gotten her asleep and i was replying to emails on my laptop in her bed while she rubbed hand cream on her hands and wrists.
there had been a weird tension in the house lately, it didn't seem like mia was mad but definitely a little irritating or annoyed with me.
i had only been home for around 1 month and a half, so it's understandable for things to be a little awkward.
we weren't really sleeping in the same bed anymore, mainly because stellas sleeping schedule was all over the place so we were kind of shift sleeping with her.
mia went through periods of being really close to me, cuddling and holding hands in public, even napping together. but then there were times where she seemed cold and needed space, almost seemingly like my mere presence was annoying to her.
max tried to explain to me that it was just a big adjustment for mia, and a lot for her to go through.
i guess he's right. but we're soulmates. she's supposed to always love me.
it was 4:30 in the morning and mia was having a hard time sleeping, meaning i was up with her as well, it made me feel bad when she had trouble sleeping.
keeping her company is the least i could do.
"do you wanna take stella to the beach for sunrise? she'll be up in an hour or two and the ocean air would be good for her." mia muttered softly, looking up from the laundry she was folding to look at me.
"sure, of course. her car seats still in my car." i nodded, shutting my laptop lid.
mia placed the pile of folded laundry into a laundry basket on the floor and i placed my laptop on my bedside table.
she climbed into bed under the sheets. i attempted to get up from bed and give her privacy so she could try to sleep, but was interrupted by her cuddling into my side and placing her head on my chest.
i couldn't help but blush as i wrapped my arm around her, rubbing her shoulder gently.
"maybe i should start taking my anxiety meds again." she sighed.
this alarmed me, she had been on them the entire time we had been together and never forgot to take them, why did she stop?
"whatever you think is best for you. is it getting bad again?" i responded.
and she nodded, burying her head back into my chest. she didn't have to speak for me to understand how bad she must be hurting.
"if you wanna go to the doctors, i can watch stella for a couple hours. it's no problem," i whispered softly.
the long tan curtains were open, allowing for a soft california spring breeze to flow in through the room.
"okay, yeah." mia nodded.
it was so nice to be around her again, and hold her. there was rustling on the baby monitor and we both turned our heads to look at the little screen on mias bedside table to see stella, eyes wide open, kicking her feet in the crib.
mia laughed softly, "well, she's up i guess," and she left my chest to get up from bed.
"i can get her, and i'll get her dressed, just go make yourself coffee and i'll meet you in the car in like 40." i grinned, kissing her forehead and before she could protest, leaving the room and walking to the nursery.
mia.
for it being 5:30 in the morning, joji and i both seemed to be in a good mood.
i poured coffee into a travel cup for joji and could hear stella giggling in her nursery while joji got her dressed,
