The Perfect Person

XIV

songs in this chapter:
-turning page by sleeping at last
-the night we met by lord huron

LET'S FIND THE GOOD IN GOODBYE'S 

Being in love was the most beautiful thing in the world. Either it's with your family, dog, or the person that you chose to give your heart to. It can be euphoric, heavenly, and exciting, all at the same time. Loving was different, it can be selfless or selfish. It can be dangerous or a safe haven that you never want to leave.

Love will never be usual, it will always be surprising in so many ways but we still choose to do it despite all the what-ifs and pain that was waiting ahead of us.

"I love you" Perrie whispered, placing her hand on top of the brunette's thigh while the other is on the steering wheel.

Jade timidly smiled, "I love you too"

"Babe, come on. Don't be sad" Perrie encouraged the girl even though she was hurting deep inside too. This time, she wants to be strong for the both of them, she wants to be the one who will hold Jade and tell her that everything is still going to be okay.

The brunette just simply nodded, placing her hand on top of Perrie's and squeezing the soft pale hand of the blonde, "You're going back to New York?" She asked, lacing their fingers together.

"I guess. I don't have anything to do here anyway" Perrie answered, looking at the dark road, "What about you?"

"I'm not going to New York" Jade chuckled, "But I'll probably still work at the library. I love it there" She added.

"I don't think I'll ever love anyone the way I love you" Perrie confessed, "My heart will always belong to you and sadly, I can't do anything about it"

"Don't say that" Jade shook her head, she doesn't deserve that. Perrie deserves to be happy even if it's not with her. The girl's love was the purest thing in the world and she can't thank the heavens enough to experience being loved by the one and only Perrie Edwards.

"I'm just being honest, Jade. My love for you was different that even words can describe it and that actions alone weren't enough to show it" Perrie sniffled but kept herself calm. She doesn't want any single tear shed yet, she just wants to say how much she loves Jade. How the girl changed her life and the way she sees it.

Before, she thought love was all about happiness, that even if they have their downs it'll all pay off in the end. Love was all about giving, being selfless even if it hurts you, broke you in so many pieces that you don't know if you can still fix it.

"I love loving you" Jade softly said, she doesn't know what to say after what Perrie just told her. She hates how she can never give the girl the love that she deserves, that she was the reason why Perrie is hurting. The reason why those deep blue eyes looked dull as ever, the reason why the girl was forcing herself not to cry or sob because she needs to remain strong, "It may sound crazy but loving you was the best decision I've ever made in life. Even though we have to hide and get hurt, I'll still choose to love you"

I've waited a hundred years
But I'll wait a million more for you

Perrie furrowed her brows, unfamiliar with the song that just played plus the vibe of it. Radios mostly play songs about sex or butts but today was different. It felt like it was telling her, them something.