look away ☄ kim jungwoo

n o t e f o r t y f i v e

the sound of his phone ringing disrupted his studying, confused at who would call him at this hour he picked up to hear a frantic voice, "jungwoo come quick, lucas just woke up." the voice speedily say. without a second thought he rushed out of the dorm

coughing severely he entered the hospital and requested to go to lucas' room. after getting an okay he hurried and spotted some of the other guys. "is he okay?" he said in a worried voice. they nodded and pushed him into the room without a second thought. it was strange to him to see the male awake

"l-lucas you're okay" his genuine smile growing at the sight of the male. he looked over, his expression forming into a puzzled look, "sorry. who are you?" the male stated with an unsure smile. what? it was like time stopped in front of him. 

"i'm sorry that i don't remember you. the nurse lady told me that i might forget some things from the injuries but i should be able to recognize things if you show me something." he smiled disregarding how exactly he was making the other feel. 

he nodded his hands starting to shake, "uhm, i'm jungwoo, you're uh. roommate. i uh, gotta go." he muttered his last words before running out of the room with a sufferable feeling digging inside of him. he couldn't believe it nor accept it. so he refused to believe it.

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"have you heard about johnny sunbaenim?"
"no what happened?"
"i heard that he had to do something but never showed up for it"
"what?"
"do you think it's another incident?"
"but all he did was disappear."

the blue haired held his hands up to his ears wanting to silence the noise. everything was going to hell like never before. one of his best friends remember everyone but him. and someone who he trusted disappearing again.
he accepted he was bad luck over anything.

the flurry of tears started to form in his eyes. his body ran cold as he silently cried in the corner of the lecture hall. he was insignificant but was suffering the most. he hated it. he wanted to disappear, he wanted everyone to look away.