look away ☄ kim jungwoo

n o t e s i x t y t w o

"have you noticed that everyone friends with jungwoo dies?"
"talk about having bad luck, he basically is the epitome of bad luck!"
"lets say away from him," 

dead, he felt dead. everything was numb and colourless, everything was so meaningless. he watched everyone disappear like the wind. was it really meant to be? was he just bad luck? why was he bad luck?

why did he bother. he looked like a mess, the exterior matched the interior well, he wasn't feeling well. mostly because of how light headed he was from sobbing until his emotions finally broke and he could no longer cry. 

a shell, he was always a shell from the first disappearance. distance, he'd end up distancing himself from everyone after jaehyun's death. no longer wanting to harm anyone else, no longer needing to harm anyone else. 

unwanted suffering was brought to the families of these people, and he was the full cause of it. if he just didn't try to sociable. if he didn't get the attention of her. he didn't want it, he didn't want the attention, he didn't want any of this anymore. 

transferring became a choice in his mind, reminding him that if he transferred it'd all go away. the school's status wouldn't be ruined and no one would die, no one else would perish because he caused it. he didn't want to cause more trouble, even if it costed his life.