Make You Mine

Fourteen

1987

"How long will you be gone?" Violet asked as tears ran down her cheeks. "Just a week, baby, and then you get to come with me," Axl said placing his forehead on Violet's as he entangled his fingers with hers. Axl softly kissed Violet's lips. "I'll miss you," Violet said. "I'll miss you, too, Vi," Axl said. 

Violet's biggest fear was Axl finding someone prettier on tour. He'd cheat on her. And then she'd find out and she'd cry for the rest of her life. Her biggest fear was losing Axl. 

"I'll see you in a few weeks, I love you," Axl said. He placed a kiss on Violet's forehead and left. 

The first thing Violet did was cry like a baby. She had all these visions in her head of what he'd do while he was gone and she felt so guilty and stupid for even thinking he'd do something like that. 

Violet woke up the next morning feeling nauseous. She ran to the bathroom and threw up. Confused, she looked at her calendar expected it to be her 'time of the month'. 

But as she looked at the calendar more. She realized. She had missed her period. She threw up. A sudden wave of sweat and guilt washed over her. 

Am I pregnant? I can't be pregnant? What do I do if I am? Oh, Axl will be so mad at me. 

Violet went to the store and bought a pregnancy test. She sat on the bathroom floor, her heart pounded. "I can't be pregnant. We used condoms, right? Yeah, I think so. Did we? I mean, we had to. We're not that stupid," Violet reassured herself. She looked back at the pregnancy test and sobbed. She was pregnant. 

She wrapped her arms around her stomach as if trying to use the baby for comfort and support. She wiped her eyes. "Oh, little baby. In a week I go see your father and join him on tour. And tell him about you," Violet said rubbing her stomach. 

She rose to her feet and looked in the mirror, picturing herself with a big baby bump and Axl by her side as they laugh and smile and think of names for the baby. Violet smiled. Sahra, Sadie, Harper, Max, Axl, Jacob. The list goes on. She thought.