More Than Friends

The Truth (Felix POV)

Who would I be able to trust with my secret? I can't go to Changbin or Minho, they tell everyone's business. Really, the only person to go to is Bangchan. He's the only one who I could trust. He calls me his little brother, he cares for me more than any of the other members. I've made up my mind, Chan it is.

*tap tap tap tap*

I delicately knock on his door.

"Who is it?" I hear his accented voice yell through the door.

"Felix" I say.

"Come in mate" he replies.

I open the door gingerly and step into the doorway. I look around the room, it's messy compared to mine and Hyunjin's room. There's cups of ramen and bags of snacks everywhere. Clothes are thrown carelessly around the room. I didn't expect them to be so messy. But that's not why I'm here, I'm not a health inspector, I want to confess my feelings to someone.

"Do you have a few minutes to talk?" I say, apprehensively.

"Course I do, anything for you Lix!" He grins.

"Well y-you s-see I'm kinda l-like.. ah nevermind Bangchan". I stutter.

"Lix what's going on? Do you wanna leave Stray Kids? Do you want to go back home? Are you missing Australia? Sit down, talk to me" he shoves his clothes from the bed on to the floor, clearing a spot for me to sit. He sits down and pats the bed next to him, signaling for me to sit.

I comply. I place myself on the bed next to him and interlock my fingers.

"So what's going on?" He says fretfully.

"Before I tell you, you gotta swear not to tell anyone! No one at all! Especially not IN and Changbin. They can't know at all!!" I yell uneasily.

"Okay, you have my word. Now hurry and tell me, I'm getting nervous my damn self just waiting to hear it!"

"Well too be completely honest with you, Hyunjin and I have been having problems." I say cowardly. I lower my head and look at my fingers interlocked in my lap.

"Problems? What kind of problems Felix?" His words lingering.

"Well, you see, we're kind of more than friends. More than roommates, more than members of a kpop group. We're closer than any of the other members. Do you understand?" I said timidly. I don't know what's making me so frightened. Bangchan is a kind, gentle soul. He would never judge nor hurt me. I should be more relaxed.

"I-I can't believe this!" He laughs. "Han was telling the truth! I lost 100 dollars!" He slaps his thigh and laughs hysterically.

I sit in absolute shock and watch him as he holds his stomach from laughing so hard. How in the actual hell does Jisung know? Why the hell didn't Hyunjin tell me he knows?! I rarely get upset, but I can feel the tears in my eyes. I feel my skin getting warm, I'm fully embarrassed. I came to Bangchan to come clean, to confess our relationship to a member, to someone I think of as my big brother; and he's laughing?! I feel warm streams of liquid falling down my face. I can't help but to let my tears flow from my eyes. My cheeks are now stained with the salty tears that have trickled down my face. My fists are clenching my pant legs.

Bangchan suddenly looks at me and immediately stops laughing. He looks ashamed for laughing. He looks at me with his deep brown eyes and puts his arm around my shoulders.

"Lix, don't cry. Stop this" he says apologetically.
"I don't mean to laugh, it's just that Hyunjin told Han about it. You came to me, but Hyunjin went to Han. Well... to be honest, Han accidentally walked into your guys room a while back and seen you two sleeping together in HJ's bed. You were asleep but Hyun was awake in the bed cuddling you or whatever Han said. I laughed because I can't believe Han was actually being serious. He says the craziest things sometimes, so I thought this was another joke he's made up. I didn't take him seriously. I'm sorry Felix" he says sincerely.

I look up at his while he's speaking to me. I look at him, but I don't fully listen. I can't stop my mind from being so angry after hearing that Hyunjin went to Han. He kept it a secret from me that someone knew about us. He couldn't tell me that Han knew? Instead I had to get reprimanded about being too close to Changbin? To my other members? I have to be mindful of my actions but he can do whatever he wants and think he doesn't have to tell me? I think to myself as Bangchan continues rambling on about Han knowing.

"What kind of arrogant, playboy is he? He isn't my boss, I don't have to answer to him!" I say aloud.

Bangchan stops talking. He's looking at me with a kind of worried look. He looks shocked really.

"What are you talking about?" He says cautiously. His eyes peering into mine.

"How come Hyunjin never told me that Han knew about us?" I hurled back. "He kept it a secret from me. He never even hinted that Han knew. All he kept saying was "eventually" or gave some lame excuse of why we shouldn't tell anyone, when someone already knew! He promised nobody knew the truth!" I snap at him.

"Lix relax, it's just Han and I who know. I swear nobody else does." Bang answers softly.

I glare at him. I'm angry, more so I'm upset. The amount of shock I'm feeling, makes me dizzy. I can't even comprehend how unsettled I feel.

"Can you do me a favor?" I question him.

"Anything that'll make you ease up" he states.

"Can you talk to Hyunjin? But with me there? Can the three of us talk together?" I ask more confidently.

"Of course! Let's go!" Chan stands up and heads towards the door.

I follow behind reluctantly.

Better now then never, I think silently and continue following him out of his dorm. We walk down the hall to my dorm room. My hearts racing as Bangchan knocks on our door.

"Who is it" Hyunjin snaps.

"Bangchan"

We enter the room and Hyunjin watches as we enter and I'm immediately halted by his glares.