More Than Friends

More Confessions (Felix POV)

I've always suspected Changbin enjoyed Hyunjin's company. Did I think he had actually fallen in love? No. I'm just as shocked as everyone else. I never thought he'd actually love the person I love. Will I have to fight for Hyunjin? I can't fathom the thought of actually losing him! What if he picks Changbin over myself? Changbin is handsome after all. He has a gorgeous dark complexion, I'd like that. He has a sharp, chisels jawline, he is without a doubt the best dancer in the group, he's kind and silly, he's the the better option in terms of simply being better. I don't see what Hyunjin sees in me. I'm an awkward, shy kid from Australia! I have freckles and I scrunch my nose, I laugh at everything and I'm a weirdo! I've never been the confident type. Sometimes I let my own insecurities get the best of me. I know Hyunjin loves me. I shouldn't be worried about this.

*tap tap*

"Felix are you awake in there?" I hear a voice from outside my dorm rooms door.

"yes, I am" I reply cheerfully.

The door opens. It's Bangchan. I can only imagine what he's here to talk about.

"As leader, i feel as if I'm inclined to tell you the truth. Minhyuk was here earlier. We haven't seen you or Hyunjin since the announcement you two made. He is waiting for you and Hyunjin to give him an answer on whether or not we are going to confirm the rumors. There's already been a bunch of "ships" that Stays have called you and Hyunjin. I guess you've been more obvious about it than we thought." He smiles while telling me the news.

"What do they call us?" I giggle.

"Hyunlix" he laughs. "Hyunlix, it's not even clever!"

I carry on laughing about the name we've been given. That's such a silly thing to do. It's cute, I'll admit.

"Anyways, what should we do Lix?" Bang exclaims.

"I'm not sure. Maybe we should keep it a mystery" I chuckle.

"Good idea! I'll tell Minhyuk to deny the rumors!" He pats my shoulder and takes his leave.

I return to my bed and allow my body to fall onto the bed. My thoughts return back to my head almost as soon as I connect with my bed. Everybody was happy when we told them the news. Changbin acted happy at first. Why did he act happy if he really wasn't? That's not like him. He's always been blunt. Hyunjin was worried about how he felt as well. Why was he so worried about it? Does he care about Changbin the same way he cares about me? Why is this bothering me so much? I need to find Hyunjin.

I leave my room and walk into the kitchen to ask Seungmin if he's seen Hyunjin.

"He's outside Lix" Seungmin says from over his shoulder.

I nod my head and make my way outside. He isn't out front, or on the balcony. Where could he have gone?

"Hyunjin!" I yell.

No reply.

"Come on baby, stop hiding!" I yell, hoping it'll be answered.

"I'm back here" I hear a low yell reply to me.

I smile as he's responded to me.

I continue walking through the fenced in yard until I reach the back yard. I spot Hyunjin, laying on his back facing the sky. I wonder what he's thinking about. I begin to approach him, thoughts swimming through my head of what I should say to him. Should I tell him I'm sorry for considering Changbin's feelings? Should I not apologize for being kind? Should I just not mention anything?

My head is still spinning full of thoughts as I approach him. I watch as he shoot's himself up from the ground as I get closer.

"I thought you were lost" I awkwardly giggle. Why would I say that? I think to myself. So stupid.

"Do you love me?" Hyunjin asks suddenly. Tears streaming from his eyes.

I'm taken back by this question. Why would he question our love? It doesn't make sense. Of course I love him! What a dumb question, I think silently.

"Of course I do" I reply back.

I'm heartbroken that he would even question our love. Especially out loud, as a question to me! I don't know what I've done to make him think otherwise! I can't help but to cry. I don't understand. My body begins to tremble with my cries. I've always been this way. Whenever I cry, my body starts to tremble. The sadness when I cry, makes my entire body react. As my tears begin to leak from my eyes, Hyunjin approaches me. He pulls me close into his body and holds me while I cry.

"I'm so sorry" I find myself whispering on repeat.

Each time he touches me, my body trembles more and more.

"I should've told you, I'm so sorry" I say.
"I didn't want you to leave me. I didn't want to let you go, I was scared." I continue crying.

"Stop it" Hyunjin replies.
"I'm not going to leave you. I've told you this 100 times, I only want you."

My body begins to relax.

"I don't want fight for your love. I want to be loved by you, everyday, all day, forever." I croak through my voice cracking and tears.

"And you will" Hyunjin replies firmly.
"Changbin isn't going to change my mind about you Felix. You're the person I want to be with. He isn't anything compared to you. He doesn't have freckles, or a fair complexion, a small, muscular body. He doesn't have compassion like you. You're the one for me. Not Changbin." He says as he looks deeply into my eyes.

"My freckles are ugly" I reply with a forced smile on my face.

Hyunjin brings his finger to my face and runs his finger across my freckles.

"Never that" he smiles.

He lets go of me and I take a step back from him. I stare at him and look up at him. He's so handsome. Even with his eyes swollen from crying, he's still incredibly beautiful.

"Felix" he says.

"Hmm?" I answer.

"Don't let this change our relationship. Please." He says.

"I won't let it." I nod.