More Than Friends

More Confessions? (Hyunjin POV)

I enter the room to see Changbin sulking in his chair. Changbin is facing the window, his back is to me. I stand in his doorway and move up enough to shut the door behind me. I can't think of the right words to say to him. I don't think I have anything to say. I don't even understand why he's so upset.

"Why Felix?" He croaks.
"Why did he have to be the one to be your roommate. If I was your roommate would it have been different? Would we have been the ones to fall in love?" He groans.

I feel a sudden burst of anger. How dare he question my love just because we were roommates? I thought about him for weeks. Since our first encounter at auditions. Changbin wouldn't even begin to understand.

"No." I shut him down immediately.
"You'd never begin to understand the way I feel for him. You have no reason to be mad or upset or whatever it is you're feeling. I've loved Felix for a very long time. And the audacity of you to even question my love? To actually think we're together strictly because we're roommates? Let me tell you clearly, I would NEVER choose you Changbin. I'd never choose somebody as weak as you." I scream at him, tears building in my eye ducts from my anger. I turn around and slam the door behind me.

I stand outside the door for a brief moment and gather myself. To my surprise, Felix is heading my way. He must've heard me screaming, and that means everyone must've too. I lower my head as Felix approaches me.

"What happened in there?" He whispers.

"Nothing. Just leave it alone" I snap.

"Let me talk to him" he replies with a smile.

"No, Felix. Leave it alone" I firmly reply.

"I'm going to talk to him" he says back and pushes me aside to enter the room.

I'm already incredibly angry, and Felix wants to add to my problems? Honestly, how inconsiderate and annoying can these people get?

I watch as Felix enters Changbin's room. I slowly follow behind him and close the door once we've both entered the room.

"Changbin?" Felix says in a calm, soothing voice.

"Please, leave me alone Felix. I don't want to lash out on you, just go" Changbin whispers back.

"I'm not leaving" Felix replies empathically. "I understand you're upset, I know it's sudden. And I know how you feel about Hyunjin. I know this isn't something you thought was going to happen, but it's something you either have to accept, or learn to just be civil about it. It's not something you're going to change, it is what it is and you have to cope with it."

"What?" I blurt out. "What do you mean you knew how he felt?"

"I knew how he felt, I didn't say anything because I didn't want you to change your feelings towards me." Felix sulks.

"Change my feelings? Why would I do that? I only have eyes for you Felix. You've been on my mind since try outs, you've been the one I've wanted for two years. You've been the only man I've been in love with!" I answer him.

"Hyunjin" I hear Changbin mutter. "I know that even if you'd known, Felix is the person you want. I won't accept that. I won't accept that he's won your heart. I will do whatever it takes for you to be with me. I should have told you this a long time ago, but I wasn't really sure how to, or if you were even into men! I had no way to explain my feelings, no way to tell you, no way to even think about what words to say! This isn't my fault, it's yours!" He cries.

"How in the world is this my fault? I chose Felix because it's always been him! Are you delusional?" My blood is boiling.

I can't believe that Felix is trying to calm down a situation like this! I can't believe Felix's disobedience , I can't believe he actually is in here letting another person tell me their feelings for me in front of him! Was this his plan? Does Felix actually not love me? Does he want me to be with Changbin? My mind is so disoriented right now, I need to clear my head.