I muster the courage to crawl out from under the blanket covering Felix and myself. Today's the day we will tell the group. I can't keep this a secret and I know Felix won't keep it a secret much longer either. I feel confident, but I'm anxious at the same time. It's been two years since the group has started. We've been through everything together. We've been through talk shows, YouTube channels have had us on their shows, we've given speeches, interacted with fans, and still Felix and I hold a secret from half of our friends. I can't continue to hide this anymore. I pull myself out of bed and walk to my closet and retrieve my clothes. I'm not sure why, but I feel as if I should partially dress up. Nothing extremely fancy, but I want to look good. I rummage through my clothes until I find a nice white button up, a black blazer and a pair of black skinny jeans. I throw on a snap back and a pair of Nike sneakers. I'm ready to tell the group.
I walk back to the bed and softly shake Felix awake from his sleep.
"Mmm" he mumbles.
"Wake up, today's the day" I say softly.
His eyes open almost immediately. "Today?" He says eagerly. His face is stretched into a smile, his nose wrinkling as his smile spreads across his face. He springs up from the bed and grabs some clothes and throws them on.
"Can you look more decent please" I snicker as he changes into a pair of sweatpants and a blue t-shirt.
He looks at me with a smile and replies with a cheerful "yeah you're right, today is important!"
He quickly changes into a nice black t-shirt with a flannel and some skinny jeans. I smile at how nice he looks.
"Are you ready?" I say as I wrap my arms around him.
"Mhm" he replies with a smile.
I grab his hand and walk him towards the door.
I open the door and we both walk to the common room. In the room are Bangchan, IN and Han. I scan the rest of the room looking for Seungmin, Minho and Changbin. The three of them are found in the kitchen.
"Can everyone come into the common room please?" I shout.
I signal for Felix to go sit on the couch. I want to be the one to announce it. I want to see everyone's expression as they found out about Felix and I. My heart starts to pound as everyone gathers into the room.
"What's going on?"
"Are we in trouble?"
"Oh boy, drama king wants his attention"
"Guys, I have something to tell all of you" I say proudly.
Han and Bangchan are gripping each other's thighs with excitement and anticipation. I know the two of them have been waiting for the announcement. It must've been killing them to keep it a secret. Especially Han, he's such a gossiper.
"Here it comes" Han blurts out.
"Here what comes? What's going on?" I hear the others murmur.
"Guys, we've been together for 2 years. We have done tours, concerts, debuts, and so many other amazing things together. We've created a special relationship and each one of you guys are like my brothers. I care deeply about each of you. So, as my brothers I'd like to tell everyone..." I pause. Why am I hesitant to tell them? I've been so excited, why is this so hard now?
"Tell us what HJ" says Minho.
"Spill it man?" Changbin yells.
"Are you leaving us?" IN looks down.
Before I can say anything Felix jumps up.
"Hyunjin and I are dating. We've been together since the start of Stray Kids." He basically screams the news at them. He grabs my hand and kisses my cheek.
Bangchan and Han run up to us and each one of them hugs us.
"Finally! I've been dying to tell someone!" Han shakes my body as he tells me.
"Finally mate, it's been forever now!" Bangchan yells at Felix.
IN jumps from the couch and yells to us "what? Two years and you never told us?! I can't believe you two! Amazing. The best secret keepers I've ever met" he laughs.
"I knew it already" Minho giggles.
"It was so obvious" he continued.
Seungmin and Changbin look at us in disbelief. It takes them longer to comprehend and totally focus on what's going on, so I didn't expect and immediate reaction from them. I can't believe everyone is alright with Felix and I being together. As partners. As lovers. Not a single negative comment. The joy in my heart from my brothers accepting this, makes me tear up. I feel the warmth in my face and my nose begin to twitch. I close my eyes and crouch down. My hands are clutching my face and I'm stifling cries into my hands. I feel multiple hands on my back comforting me.
"Don't cry! Our visual can't cry Hyunjin!" I hear to my surprise, Seungmins voice. I look up at him with the tears still filling my eyes and smile. I'm so relieved that everyone has taken it so kindly.
"I'm not crying, my hair hit my eye" I chuckle. I stand back up and flick my tears from my eyes. I need to be strong. This is a happy moment. I glance around the room and see the happiness on everyone's face, besides Changbin. Why is he so sour? I think silently. He has no reason to be upset. Why isn't he supporting us? I'm offended and angry.
The moment of bliss has now worn off. I'm staring at Changbin with pure anger. How can he be so arrogant? So rude? He's not even going to congratulate Felix and I?
"Changbin" I say sourly. All eyes are turned to me.
"Aren't you going to say anything about Felix and I?"
"No. We've all known. It's no surprise. You two are stuck like glue so I have nothing to say." He says bitterly.
He gets up and storms out of the house.
"Oh man" says Bangchan.
"What?" Says Felix innocently.
"Nothing, I've gotta run!" Chan pats us on the back and heads towards the door.
Felix and I stand together now holding hands and talking to the other members.
"Let's all watch a movie!" IN says keenly.
Everyone agrees.
"Hey let Felix and HJ sit together!" Han cries out as Minho tried to sit in the middle of the couch next to Felix.
"Fine fine" he sniggers.
Han joins Seungmin in the kitchen to make some popcorn and gather some drinks and snacks to munch on throughout the movie.
I sit happily next to Felix and hold his hand until he decides to lay down on my lap. I play with his hair as we watch the movie. In this current moment, I'm in my glory. I have the man I love and the most amazing friends surrounding me. My mind darts back to Changbin's response to our declaration. I'm not sure why he's so upset, but I'm going to enjoy this one moment.
About an hour passes when Chan and Changbin come back in. Although nobodies talking during the movie, an eerie silence fills the room. Chan joyfully makes himself comfortable on the floor sprawled out and begins watching the movie with us. Changbin however, heads down the hallway to his dorm. The tension has made everyone uncomfortable in some way or another. I feel as if me especially feels the most tension. I think he might have some pent up anger towards me after the official coming out of Felix and I.
My eyes are glued to the TV screen, but I can't help to think of why Changbin would be upset with me. I move Felix from off of my body, and stand up from the couch.
I begin walking down the hallway, and decide to knock on Changbin's door.
"What?" I hear him reply. He sounds like he's crying. His voice is deep and trembling. I hear him sniffle as well.
"Can I come in?" I reply faintly.
"I guess so" he sniffles again.
I enter the room.
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More Than Friends
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