Oh Brother

Ashamed

Harper Payne

"What time is it?" I asked as I yawned. "It's currently three-thirty. You look tired, maybe you should get some sleep before the next few mad hours." Niall suggested. I turned to look at him. Louis, Niall and I were all currently watching a movie on the TV. I was in the middle of the two with my legs over Louis' lap and my head on Niall's shoulder. "Yeah, he's right. It can be stressful." Louis reminded. "You think I don't know that?" I asked. "Last time, I managed to fall out with everyone before I'd even made friends. And, I'd managed to kiss someone, like, what was it? Three times? Four times?" I added. "It was four and yes, you didn't make a very good first impression but we all love you now." Louis replied. "Who'd you kiss?" Niall asked as he frowned down at me. "Harry." I blurted. "Oh, right. Well, get some sleep and before you know it, we'll be there." Niall assured calmly. That's what I loved about Niall. He doesn't care about my past. I moved my body so that my head was in Niall's lap but so that I could still see the TV. He began to stroke my hair subconsciously and that's what made me drift off into sleep.

"Harp. Harp, we're here." Niall said as he shook my shoulder gently. "No, this is how you wake her up properly, look." I heard Louis say. I felt my legs being pushed and my feet hit the ground and I groaned before sitting up. "Thanks for the warm welcome Lou." I mumbled as I rested my head on Niall's shoulder and cuddled into his side. "Anytime babe." He replied sarcastically. "Harper, you can't cuddle into me, we're here." Niall reminded. "Fine." I groaned. As I opened my eyes and my senses went back to normal, I could hear screaming and shouting. "What time is it?" I asked as I rubbed my eyes. "It's four but obviously, some girls like to come early." Niall explained as I watched Louis get up. "Right, ok." I answered. "You gotta get through them as fast as possible." Zayn said as he came and sat next to me.

"Why?" I asked curiously. "Remember when we were leaving the hospital? It's like that but there's ten times the girls and ten times the harsh comments." Zayn stated. "Right." I breathed. Liam came and sat next to Zayn on the sofa. "Why are we all sitting down if we need to go?" I asked. "We are waiting for Paul and other security guards to clear like a path for us, kind of." Liam explained. I nodded. "Payno." Harry said as he came in. "Yeah?" Liam asked. "Oh, uh, other Payno." Harry said awkwardly causing all of us to laugh lightly. "Yeah?" I asked. "Come on." He said while gesturing to the bedroom door. "Uh, why?" I asked cautiously. "Please?" He asked. I stood up warily as I made my way towards him. "Scream if he tries anything." Louis joked. "Shut up." I scowled as I walked past Harry, through bedroom a and into bedroom b. 

"You alright?" I asked as he followed me in. "Why don't you like me?" Harry asked bluntly. "That was blunt... it's not that I don't like you, I just don't like the way you've treated me and I'm quite confused with how I'm feeling at the moment anyway." I explained. "So, in short, you do like me but not my actions but you also like Niall." He stated. "Woah, what makes you say that?" I asked as I laughed nervously. "You were asleep in his lap, Harper. It's obvious." He replied. "I don't know how that makes it obvious but you're wrong and right now, I think it's best if I avoid any relationships with any of you to be honest. Other than my siblinghood with Liam of course." I said as I crossed my arms over my chest. "No, that's not what I meant-" He began. "Well, that's what's happening so." I cut him off rudely. "Harp, please, hear me out!" 

"No, Harry, ok. I get you like me but you need to get over me, ok? Get over me." I whispered the last part with tears in my eyes as I pushed past him to get back to the other boys. "Please forgive me." He begged as he grabbed my wrist while we were in room a. "I have been too forgiving and I've only been here for two days. Two days and we've kissed five times. Who does that?! You still have a girlfriend." I answered quickly. "I'll break up with her, I'll go against management, please!" Harry exclaimed. "No! I just need friends, is that too much to ask?" I shouted. I stormed out of the room and back into the living room where I slumped back onto the sofa next to Niall. "That was heated." Niall mumbled. I tried to hold back my tears by biting my bottom lip but I couldn't help it. "Harp, are you ok?" Niall asked when he got no response. I turned to look at him with tears filling my eyes and he was quick to pull me into a hug.

"I'm going to go and get Harry- woah, is everything alright?" Liam asked as he finally pulled away from his conversation with Louis and Zayn. "She's just overwhelmed that's all." Niall assured. I brought my hands from around Niall's waist to my eyes and frantically tried to wipe my tears away. I stood up from Niall's embrace and hugged Liam tightly. "Are you alright?" He whispered. "Just missing mum and dad and Jordie." I explained. "I miss them too. We'll see them soon though, yeah?" He asked. "No, we might never see Jordie again." I mumbled, now getting myself worked up over Jordie. "Oh, shut up Harper. We both know we will." Liam said loudly, causing the other three to look at us. "You will what?" Zayn asked. "See Jo-" I began. "See our parents again." Liam butted in. "Course you will." Zayn said with a smile. I pulled away from Liam and frowned at him.

"I haven't told them." He stated, loud enough for everyone to hear. "Haven't told us what?" Louis asked. "Go on Liam, you can do it, seeing as you've been too ashamed all these years." I spat as tears of anger began to fill my eyes as he sighed. "You know, I've thought about him every single damn day and you don't even care enough to tell your best friends? Wow, excellent brother you are." I shouted. "Harper, come on, sit down before you stress yourself out." Niall intervened as he grabbed my wrist and pulled me down onto the sofa next to him.