Yellow Roses (Joseph x Aesop)

Let him go...

A/N: Heya guys! are you crying yet cus you should be :) I'm still deciding weather to crush your hearts at the end of this or cut you some slack and end it nicely. what would you prefer? 

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Aesop's POV:

I ran back through the manors and up to my room, slamming the door behind me and collapsing onto my bed. My chest ached and I could hardly breath through my tears. Its not fair... not fair... why can't we just be together... I don't understand... I don't understand. 

My throat began to sting and my head was spinning... so many thoughts, I don't understand them. I thought we were soulmates... meant to be, yet everything keeps taring us apart and I don't think I can keep doing this anymore...

"Aesop..." someone was standing in my doorway and mumbling to me. "Aesop are you okay...?"

I didn't respond, my throat hurt to much to speak and I didn't know what to say anyway... The person came over and sat on the edge of my bed, beginning to rub their hand up and down  my back in comfort.

"Everything will be okay Sop... I promise..." They whispered in my ear

Everything will be okay... I promise... Lies! I must have been told that over a thousand times by now and it never does get better, nothing will ever be okay... not without him... 

"I'm here for you... It's okay...its okay..." The voice was odd... It wasn't one I was used to, like Helena's, Martha's or Fiona's... 

I shuffled over and turned round... staring at the person, my eyes puffy and wet from my sobs.

"Hey Sop..." Eli smiled at me, removing his hand from my back

"No... no..." I shook my head and got up from the bed, backing against the wall. "Please just leave me alone..."

Eli looked down into his lap and sighed. "Aesop, I'm so sorry... I wanted to explain things to you but I don't think you'd believe me..."

I shook my head, the tears still rolling down my cheeks. "I don't want to hear it Eli... not now..."

He stood up of the bed and I squeezed my eyes shut, shielding my face with my hands. He got closer to me, slowly and calmly, before simply placing a hand on my shoulder. I looked up and noticed the tears slowly forming in his eyes...

"Please just let me explain..." Eli had his mask off and his eyes where filled with guilt and concern, not how they where before...

I took my arms away from my face and sighed, walking back over to my bed and patting a space next to me for Eli to sit down. "Fine... what do you want to say..."

Eli smiled and sat next to me, leaving a decent amount of space in between us... "I know what I'm about to say will sound like I'm just trying to make excuses but please Aesop, you must believe what I'm saying is the truth... I wouldn't lie to you Sop..." I nodded and dried the tears from my eyes, with my hand. "I'm not really sure how to explain it but... the Eli who did those things to you wasn't me... I know, I know it sounds crazy but please just let me explain... From what I can remember is I saw you one time in the garden with that Joseph guy and you looked so happy so I just left you two alone but then when I got up to my room I felt really dizzy and sick and blacked out. then all I remember was waking up in the hospital with this stab wound... Emily would tell me about things that happened every day during my recovery and I slowly started to remember the things that happened in between those times..." I gave Eli a blank stare, he was making no sense... "Aesop I have a feeling that during that time I might have been being controlled by someone... possibly to stir up trouble between you and Joseph..."