Midnight Series (camren version)

Chapter Sixteen

butterfly

I'd done everything she'd ever asked, every time, and without question. She always had my best interest in mind, and up until that moment, I never questioned a single thing she'd asked of me. Even when she asked me to do this, she had my best interest at heart, but deep down I knew she was wrong. I didn't have a family, and I couldn't imagine ending the existence of the only blood relative I had.

I went to the playroom to think about it. It was the place I was most at peace. Kneeling there in the waiting position for a while, I realized what I had to do. I stood and walked to the table in the center of the room.

It was the hardest thing I'd ever done, but I knew taking the pill would be harder. With a deep breath, I wrote the word, removed the chain from around my neck, and set it on my journal with the pill. It was a coward's way out. I should have gone to her and told her, had her officially remove my collar, but I wasn't sure I'd have the courage to go through with it if I had to look her in the eye.

After exiting the playroom, I left the penthouse, not really sure where I was going. I was tired and I just wanted to lie down and sleep, but I also knew that it was the baby making me that way. It needed nourishment. I could have lied to Lauren, told her I'd taken the pill and gotten what I needed from her, but that just wasn't me.

I needed assistance, and there was really only one place to go. It was a long shot that they would help me, but I had no other choice.

I drove the route we'd taken a few times. Unsure I was going the right way, I nearly turned back a few times, but then I would see a familiar landmark. I was so tired and I wanted to pull over to rest, but I knew that if I did, I'd never wake up. Finally, after what felt like hours but was closer to forty-five minutes, I pulled up in front of the house. It was now or never. I wasn't sure what I'd do if they turned me away.

With exhaustion overtaking me, I stumbled up the front steps. Leaning against the doorframe, I took a deep breath and ran my thumb over the diamond bracelet on my wrist before ringing the bell. I hadn't even pressed the button when the front door flew open and I came face to face with Mike, who appeared to be running out of the house. He was on the phone and looked to be in a panic. "She's here," he said into the receiver. I could hear Lauren on the other end, telling him she would be right there. I didn't want her to come.

"Please, no," I whispered to Mike, and he must have seen the look of desperation in my eyes because he nodded.

"Lauren, that isn't a good idea. She's here and we won't let anything happen to her."

"Why is she there?" I heard Lauren ask in an agitated tone. It broke my heart that she was so worried, though the adrenaline of hearing her voice gave me a bit more strength.

"I'm not sure. Perhaps she wants to talk to a fellow submissive or little girl." That answer seemed to satisfy Lauren, though it wasn't the reason I was there. I'd come because when I'd first met them, they said that I was part of the family and could come to them if I ever needed anything. There was only one thing I needed now, and other than Lauren, they were the only ones who had it. The question was, would they give it to me?

Mike had hung up the phone, promising to call Lauren back in a few minutes to tell her how I was doing. I wondered how long they'd been on the phone and what Mike knew. I supposed it was better if he knew it all. I wouldn't have to tell him.

"Come in," he said, then looking at me, changed his mind. "On the other hand, let's go sit in the sun. You look really tired." He walked me around back where Clara was pacing on the patio. She looked shocked to see me.