//Depressed Deku x Dabi //Dabideku

13. Nonsense

This contains yaoi, Boy x boy and depression as well as suicidal elements as well as self-harm. If you are uncomfortable with any of these topics please do not read. Thank you!

I hope you enjoy

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Dabi Pov.

After I pulled myself together I find myself standing in front of our hideout. I'm hesitant and reluctant to go in... Dammit. Just-Take some deep breaths and just get in there.

But then what? Do I tell him? I mean what else do I fucking do? Leave him in the dark?...Of course not... I can't lie to him what if he resents me for it later. I just have to be upfront about it, it's not like it's really my fault... I don't think. The only thing I'll be guilty for is lying in his face and leading him into more heartbreak if I don't break the damn news now. He has a right to know... He should know. But why won't this sunken feeling go away?

I touch the cold metal handel of the door and carefully push the it open, secretly hoping Izuku would be busy or asleep ...

But of course I was hoping for nothing. There was no way life was gonna take it easy on me. Gosh dang it.

As I slowly walk up to him I notice he seems to be... sad or at least occupied with something. He's mumbling and staring at his feet while swirling his thumbs around one another. He barely even noticed when I stood right in front of him. He seems...dazed.

"Izuku...?" I softly speak. It takes him a second but he realizes I'm talking to him and looks up.

"Oh! Dabi, right? You're back... Where did you go? If I can ask that, of course you don't need to answer..."

I grit my teeth...

"I-I went to..."

Dam this is so hard. C'mon get a grip man! Just spit it out.

"I went to UA."

Izuku stops for a brief second and looks at me.

"U-UA? What-why would you go there...?" he stutters.

Hah...

"We decided it'd be best to do some information gathering so I was dispatched-"

I look over to Shigaraki with a telling look to not rat me out. I never received an order to go there and investigate... I went there in truth because I knew I had to watch out for problems with Izuku... That's just how heros are. That's what they do. Speculate, accuse, hurt and say sorry later expecting to be forgiven.

" - and I... Well the rest is confidential naturally."

"Oh- I understand."

Phew. Good. He didn't question me any further. I don't even know what I would've said.

I move past him even though I really want to hug him and tell him he'll be okay and soon enough his life will be back to normal... But it doesn't look like that. At least for now. To be honest it looks rather grim.

As I was moving towards the stairs I felt someone grab onto my coat. This rather surprised me. I turn to see who it is, maybe it's Shigaraki who wants to know why I lied about why I was at UA. Or even why I went to UA in the first place. But it's Izuku.

"I have a question." he says with a determined look on his face.

I sigh knowing I'll probably have to spill the beans like I should have just now.

"Yeah? Ask away."

"So... You went to UA and um... Did you hear anything about me? I-I'm not stupid." fot the first time he seems completly serious.

He continues,

"I know that what happened with me and you guys helping me isn't the usual drift. Its just doesn't happen, so considering hero society and the heros I know..."

He pauses.

"I probably don't look too good right now do I? I mean randomly falling off of a building, almost dying, being helped by villains and then disappearing just screams of a get-out-plan. I... Probably look like a villain... And given it's been a month and they haven't found me means they probably... Stopped searching. Right? "

I'm stunned. How did he-...? I mean I always knew that Izuku was smart but I didn't think he would figure this out by himself... That is really outstanding. This makes everything a bit easier for me... Now I don't have to spell it out I just have to answer' Yes' or 'No'...

I look into his emerald green eyes. They aren't sad or scared... He's analytical. I should have known there is no keeping him from the truth...

"Yes."

3rd person Pov.

The next day at UA.

The usually rowdy classroom is quiet even before Mr. Aizawa walks in. Silence is laying heavy in the air like a blanket filled with rocks instead of feathers. They are all too focused on their on thoughts.

Some are grieving, some remorseful, some plotting, some revising their mistakes and some are just completely blank but one thing they all share is a troubled look on their faces and an eerie feeling looking at the seat where there once sat a green haired boy full of life. These teenagers are troubled and left with more questions than answers. They all wonder how he is doing. With no exceptions.

The silence is broken when the classroom door is opened and their homeroom tecaher enters, he himself is not excluded from their worry as well. He wears a bitter face as he enters. The students look up with some hopeful faces asking if there was any new progress with their classmates temporary disappearance. And news there were but if they had wanted to hear it was a different matter.

"Hello class," Mr Aizawa starts, which didn't fit with his normal attitude at all.

"I know we've all been worried about Midoriya and sadly there have been developments over the last few days."

A few gasps travel through the class and students are asking himself why it would be sad to have news. However Mr. Aizawa doesn't let himself be troubled with this and sternly continues.

" We have had multiple discussions and worked out that Izuku Midoriya is no longer to be trusted and is now to be recognized as a potential villain whose case file needs to be certified and proven. But even though we can't prove he is a villain this means our search for him will cease and instead a sighting of him shall be treated as one of any other villain. "

Most students just stared in shock while some protested. They didn't believe it, they couldn't! Midoriya? A traitor? If anything he'd be the last person to be a traitor!

" HEY WHAT NONSENSE ARE YOU ON ABOUT?!? THE NERD? A TRAITOR ? ARE YOU RETARDED? HE'S BROKEN BONES FOR US AND GONE TO THE EXTREME YOU THINK THAT PIECE OF SHIT WOULD BETRAY US? IN YOUR DREAMS YOU'RE ALL JUST USELESS."

It's almost ironic how positively the blonde speaks of the green haired boy when he isn't around.

Aizawa sighs.

" Look Bakugou I can't do anything about it ok? We're just gonna have to wait and see... "

" WAIT AND SEE?! THAT'S WHAT HE GETS FOR HAVING ONE OF THE BEST MORALS IN THIS DAMN USELESS CLASSROOM?!"

"Bakugou, everyone I get it and I'm just as upset as you guys but... Ugh forget it class is dismissed for today..."

Aizawa walks out the class room but the class wasn't done just yet. They weren't just gonna ignore this. They planned a meeting for later that day and went to do their own things... Overthinking what in the hell they had just heard.

But one thing was in everyone's minds...

'Nonsense.'

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Donneee and a longer chap for once!!! Sorry for not uploading so long but half way through this chapter I got really sick so I couldn't finish it sooner.

Stay healthy guys and wear that mask, wash your hands and don't drown in dispair! ✨🌸0v0