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break up make up

warning-self hate cutting um yup

i remember our first fight it was.. pretty bad a lot of things were brought up, things i regret it was a month ago from where we currently are i doubt it's the reason for him to do something so drastic and dire like this i still remember everything that was said.

you have to stop just jumping into fights like that you complete idiot i said meaner than i really meant i was high on emotions and scared he got severely hurt i just didn't know how to express my worry it's not my fault you know that right i didn't choose to get hurt kacchan well maybe if you weren't so weak it wouldn't have happened Deku i know cause im just so useless arent i you know what maybe you are even with that new quirk you still cant take care of your self or anyone else you'll never be a hero deku he looked stunned i walked out the infirmary and into my dorm

what the fucks wrong with me why cant i just tell him im worried i had to fuck our already fucked up relationship that i was trying so hard to mend i wouldn't be shocked if he broke up with me why am i like this that night i spent most of it crying my eyes and gaining some of the scars on my wrist that still disgust me knowing that i hurt him like that but yet i have the audacity to feel bad when he didn't even say anything wrong i hated myself i knew i was in the wrong i need to talk to him even if he breaks up with me that ran  on repeat in my head ugh.

i barely got any sleep i walke to his dorm at three in the morning hesitant to knock but eventually did i saw him and almost immediately forgot why i was there he so fucking hot in the morning he's hot in general kacchan? in a lost for word my slightly horny and sleep deprived ass jumped into him for a hug he hugged me back noticing that i was crying I'm so sorry deku kacchan before you continue if you wanna break up just let me hug you a little longer what of course not i love you kacchan id never break up with you he puts his chin in my hair while he hold me leaning somewhat aginst his door frame kacchan hmm your wrist i thought you were gonna break up with me so i start panicking sorry its fine just don't do it again  okay

now looking back its hard to think of how he changed and i didn't notice he began to get smaller like back he was in middle school he was shorter than me and my dumbass thought it was because he had to let off of training its difficult knowing how dominant he is over me he does something like this over me its not even over me that stupid bastard did this selfish bastard i swear once i get izu together I'm gonna kill that mother fucker 

back to our after fight we kinda just cuddled there skipped school which we knew would fuck us up in the future but i didn't want to leave the warmth of his chest and he didn't want to letn me go we kinda forgot how to do anything but cuddle each other we didn't shower eat or get up fro his bed maybe the time we spent apart took a toll on us i didn't really care why we were like this i enjoyed it the only thing that bothered me was that it couldn't last forever we stayed like that till six the next day being basically dragged by aizawa to the showers and happening to train on our lunch break and after school it was worth it though so worth it 

kacchan uyes deku i love you i love you too he stoped what he was doing n and walked over to me where i was punching the training bag he grabbed my chin makingnme stop and look him in the eyes kacchan i really love you oh he meant was in love with me the thing is wed tell each other we loved one another before we were dating it was brotherly when we were little or that's what i suppose it was i really love you to izuku now get back to training if you want cuddles in when we get back to your room that's no fair and how is it not you threaten me with cuddles all the time to different when you do it whatever the no cuddles thing is still happening if you don't get back to work meanie what was that midoriya nothing sorry baby baby a new oet name its cute so i guess i don't mind it from it obviously made me blush which i don't like its like and obvious emotion spotter and i like keeping those bastard under raps but its just in front of deku so its fine wait no cant let him see that's what makes him honey and my legs are already gonna hurt from training

kacchan no deku i wont let you rape me wait what he comes close to me i um sorry its just my legs are gonna hurt after and i would really appreciate it if you kept it in your pants looking down at his shorts i spot it from the inside kacchan my eyes are up here i know that idiot for someone who doesn't want me to fuck you to next year your sure drooling a little i swear to god deku I'm gonna kill you are you sure baby yes i am now come on I'm sleeping in my dorm alone since you wanna be a tease don't be like that no you started that shit deku so don't do that what do you mean I'm not doing anything yes you are your puppy dog eyeing me into sleeping with you is it working yes but you carrying me to you dorm well why wouldnmnt i my lady call me that again and your gonna be missing one of your pretty eyes aww you think my eyes are pretty that's not the point well i do think its the point kacchan called me cute i call you cute all the time yea but you said it first so its even better I'm gonna leave you if you keep being and idiot sorry its okay mt izu good night my kacchan good night