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end of the beginning

 the day is finally here 24 hrs before now i didn't think i could ever get ready to finally bring us here but i realize i won't ever be so why don't we stop stalling and get to the problem and hand why my lover decided to kill himself cause of me well from the flashbacks it can be loads of shit the bullying me just being emotionally tiring the stress the nightmares that break me to the bone because he gets them cause of me maybe its all of them  but the breaking point is what we're getting to right about now

izuku meet me at the cherry blossom tree behind the dorms why kacchan i have to tell you something oh okay see you after class we wouldn't see each other for the entire day because they grouped a bunch of 1-a and 1-b students together why i still don't know hours went by slowly mostly because going to each class me and Deku would fool around secret kisses because we didn't want any more of those extras to know since half n half stalking ass already found out turns out he's more than a stalker he's the reason I'm losing what i so really need to breathe my life support my air my love my number one supporter i put down because of unwanted emotions it sucks that his i mean our fate was decided by that bastard.

finally its the end of the day i basically sprint after much contemplating i was gonna ask the big question i know we're gonna have to wait until were 18 but it's so worth it a few days ago it hit me that i need him in my life without him I'm empty and miserable i couldn't imagine a life without him especially now since that could be a possibility that everything that i knew could change in just a mire few seconds it's so fucking irritating knowing i could've stoped it that i could've met him in his dorm first 

icyhot why the fuck are you here well i know about your whole little proposal and i just can't let that happen to be honest bitch i don't give an actual fuck so can you please just move i really need to do this since you asked so nicely no if i cant have him no one can selfish motherfucker jumped up top of me and started  making out with me since he was heavy which so confusing how are all these skinny motherfuckers so heavy a few minutes of being suffocated deku came and he watched in shock i watched his little face drop and i couldn't do anything he had me pinned i was stuck i couldn't yell or fight i just had to stay and watch him cry

if you just wanted to break up with me for this asshole you could have just said so icyhot got up and i ran over to deku who was gone i checked everywhere around campus thinking he probably went  to get comfort from his friend to only be left worried that none of them had seen him since class i looked at the treehouse looked at inkos house thankful shes not there so i diont have to tell her i made him go missing i tried calling to find out his phone was in my dorm i really fucked up i started to cry not knowing if he's hurt or did he get attacked or taken i went back to the treehouse lost needing for answers or some sort of clue

a note from dekus fuck so he's fine a wave od some sort of relief washed over me that he was okay but knowing he didnt want to talk yet see me really said something i did a lot of shit to him  and he never reacted in such a way he finally hit his breaking point i was scared to look in the letter i just stared at it for almost thirty minutes before picking it up it smelled like him minty i missed his smell his skin  the only taste and smell is of icy hot i didnt think to brush his taste out of my mouth i was to worried for my boyfriend who ran off fucking crying and now leaving shady ass notes i opened it to see slightly still wet tears stains fuck he was here right before me if owned up and read i could've caught up with him fuck but the letter broke me 

 ᴋᴀᴄᴄʜᴀɴ ɪ ᴜɴᴅᴇʀꜱᴛᴀɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜʟʟ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ʜᴇʀᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴏꜰꜰɪᴄɪᴀʟʟʏ ʙʀᴇᴀᴋ ᴜᴘ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍᴇ ꜱᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ ʙᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛᴏᴅᴏʀᴏᴋɪ ɪ ᴡɪꜱʜ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴇꜱᴛ ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴄᴀɴᴛ ʟɪᴠᴇ ᴋɴᴏᴡɪɴɢ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴡɪᴛʜ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴇʟꜱᴇ ꜱᴏ ɪ ᴍᴜꜱᴛ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ ꜰᴏʀᴇᴠᴇʀ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴋᴀᴄᴄʜᴀɴ

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i know where he is i run knowing he's not leaving town he's leaving life dumb fucking deku i fall running and having a breakdown knowing i cant waste time i swallow all the tears that are begging to let them stream down my face and go to our old family campsite first time he told me he loved me when we were three we ran up this tall ass mountain  beside the lake our parents were at how does he keep remember these plates it was over 11 years ago i guess because it was one of our happier memories i shouldn't fondle on that though he could have already done it and if he did i need to get him help before the worst is upon me 

i run up the mountain to see him he notices me and stands up almost leaning off the edge as though its a threat or warning for me not to get any close deku im sorry just please don't do it don't jump I love you izuku i saw a glimpse of regret and unsureness rush over his face before he said I really wish that was true bakugo you cant do this deku we have to become hereos together get married have dozens of dozens of little brats retire together spend our life together i know now that you rather do that with him goodbye kacchan he slowly leans backward falling i run off to catch him only to be kicked by him onto a ledge then it all went black 

the end