After All This Damage (Finished)

Chapter 19

You were laying in bed across Bucky's bare chest.

"Whats troubling you doll?"

"Having to decide if I'm going to find the file on my mom. I just don't know."

"I think you could get closure by reading the file."

"Wanna come with me downstairs to get the file?"

"I will go everywhere with you my love."

You got up and got dressed. Bucky had gotten dressed and wrapped his arms around your waist. He nuzzled his face in your neck. "I love you so much baby."

The two of you headed to the conference room to use Tony's computer to pull up the files. You begin logging into the system looking for file 2319.

After about 10 minutes you finally find it.

You hesitated opening it, Bucky took your hand. "You don't have to if you don't want to doll." He said pulling your head to face him. "If your not ready the file will always be there. I love you" he kissed you softly.

"I'm ready I need to know." You kissed him and turned to the computer. You opened the file, it was a video.

In the video there stood your mother, and a S.H.I.E.L.D. agent you didn't recognize. The agent began by saying "Your daughter is a traitor to S.H.I.E.L.D., she is to wed Zemo in the Winter. She must be taken out, she knows to much."

"I'm disappointed in her. She was to take him out and yet she is marrying him. I have a mission and I will complete my mission, even it means killing my only daughter." Your mom said with no emotion attached.

The video had ended. You were speechless. "Doll?"

"She was going to take me out cause I was following Fury's orders, I had to get Zemo close so I could access his files. She didn't even try to save me. Zemo must have cared if he killed my mom. I...I....I don't know what to think." You started crying, knowing was a closure but it still hurt.

Bucky pulled you in and held you close, not letting go until you pushed away. He stroked your face, and kissed your forehead. "Can I get you anything?"

"No I'm ok. I think I'm going to bed. If that's ok?"

"Do want me there to cuddle?" He asked.

"Yea" you said. He picked you up and carried you to your room, laying you on the bed. You curled up on your side, he laid beside you and pulled you close. His arms around your waist. He kissed you cheek goodnight and snuggled his face in your neck, he fell asleep. You were up awhile listening to his adorable snores while the video replayed in your head. You just couldn't believe it. After about an hour you finally fell asleep.

***

The next few weeks were sort of the same. You wandered the halls not wanting to really do anything. Bucky made sure you ate and showered, and he didn't push you to do anything you didn't want to.

One night Nat came into your room during your alone time. "Heyyy"

"Hi," you said quietly. "Everything ok?"

"I was gonna ask you that. Why don't I take you shopping tomorrow. I think you could use a day out of this place. Its kinda of depressing." She said with her signature smirk.

"Ok, maybe getting out of the house would be good. What time did you wanna head out?" You asked

"10" she said

"I cant wait." You forced a smile. Nat closed the door as she left.

You decided to go downstairs and get a tub of ice cream, Moose tracks, your favorite. You headed back to your room and drew the bath. You added bubbles and Epsom salts and a bath bomb. You lit a few candles and added rose petals. You undressed and got in the warm bath. You ate your ice cream and thought of how happy you used to be. You wanted that back in that moment you were moving on and being happy again.

Bucky walked in your bedroom "Doll?"

"In the tub" you shouted, he closed and locked the door to your room.

"Hey why don't I take you out tomorrow night? Nat told me you are going shopping and when you get back I wanna take you out. If that's ok?" He asked a little nervous.

"Yea that's fine. I want to move on to happier times and leave my depressing side in the past. Want some moose tracks?" You offered him the tub of ice cream.

He sat on the floor beside the tub. He ate a bite or two, then placed the tub on the counter. He grabbed the sponge and washed your legs. He leaned forward and kissed you.

(Its gonna get spicy, skip to the next chapter)

You pulled him closer, he pulled away, he stood up and took off his clothes. He got into the tub with you. He pulled you into his lap. You could feel his lower self on your thigh. You loved it, he was your Bucky and you were his doll.

You made out with him until the water grew cold. The two of you got out of the tub and headed into your room. Bucky pinned you against the wall. He lifted your legs and penetrated you. He sucked on your neck leaving hickeys. He thrusted into you until he almost came. He pulled out and carried you to your bed. He sat you on the edge before he got on his knees and began eating you out. You loved when he did that. You moaned in pleasure as he played with your clit. He got back up and he placed himself back in you with a condom on. He thrusted making you moan. He didn't stop until he filled the condom with his love. He pulled out and laid beside you on the bed. The two of you gave soft kisses until the two you fell asleep in each others arms.