Besitos (Little Kisses)

Skylines and Turnstiles

I got a half assed lecture, but I could tell she was excited for me. Only because I hadn't told her the why yet. I told her the where, but definitely not the who. Or when I met the who.
"So is it to visit Katy?" she asked.
Oh boy, was I tempted to tell her she was right, that I was packing everything and leaving for California to see my best friend of 6 years. Katy had to move during high school, but we kept close ties. I definitely would be visiting Katy, but I decided it was best to tell the truth. Maybe not best for my poor mom's blood pressure, but best overall.
It took me probably three minutes of talking non-stop to explain my crazy. She didn't say anything the whole time, just quietly waited for me to stop so she could flip the fucking lid. And flip it she did.
She told me a bunch of things I already knew, like I was fucking crazy and naive and rash. Then she asked a hundred questions that I didn't know the answers to, like what was I thinking, when did I get so crazy, naive, rash, etc.. She used the term "one night stand" and I almost puked.
"Mom, please don't. That's not what it was."
I had had them before. Definitely not what this was.
It's a good thing she didn't give me time to answer anything. I couldn't have if I tried.
She riled herself up into silence, and finished with a firm "Please, be careful."
"I will. You have to trust me."
I thanked my lucky stars she wasn't physically in front of me, then I told her I loved her and I'd call soon.
I knew she wasn't mad. She'd get in touch the next day to say that she just wanted me to be happy, and that she knew I'd do right by myself.
She'd be right. I always did. It made for some hard decisions, but I learned young to look out for number one.
So that was the first person checked off the list of People I Should Tell I'm Running Away. I added Katy to it.
I texted Vic goodnight, and decided to deal with the rest in the morning.