✔ Bloom • [Yoonmin]

21 : Hurts

A week later

Yoongi's pov :

Jimin looked very sad that day for some reason. After that, I haven't seen him much than usual. Is it because I said that I found my mate and..broke things with him...

"Am I an idiot?" I asked myself while walking back home after class. It feels weird because Jimin always was with me when we walked back home.

I really do miss him but maybe he needs some space .....

I was so deep in my thought that I didn't notice that someone was tapping my shoulder.

"Yoongi-hyung?" I turned to see Taehyung. He grinned but quickly stopped when he looked around.

"Where's Jimin?" He asks being surprised that I was alone.

"Uh...I don't know. I haven't seen him lately." Taehyung hummed.

"He hasn't come to college too. Is he sick? Or maybe his heat? "I pursed my lips because it might be possible too.

"Maybe." Taehyung sighed.

"Anyway, you are looking happy. Did something happened between you two?" Taehyung wiggles his eyebrows but I rolled my eyes.

"No, it's just I feel happy whenever I pass by Jimin's area. I feel the pull that my mate is in here." Taehyung gasped.

"You found your mate! well, congrats! But what about Jimin? Did you two end it?" I nod. Taehyung whined.

"But you two looked nice together. Well, what can you do if you're destined for someone, right? I hope my Jiminie finds someone who will keep him happy and takes care of him." I chuckled. He cares for his friend.

"What about you? Don't you want to find yours?"Taehyung points at himself.

"Me? Well, I don't care. I'm a beta so I'm fine with anyone." I chuckled again.

"By the way, Hyung do you have any ideas for Jimin's birthday?"Taehyung asked and I realised that I don't know about Jimin's birthday.

"When it is?"

"A month later. We always plan ahead because you know about his condition so we want to make him feel special. After knowing that Jimin doesn't have a scent on him, I have always tried to do something nice for him so that he doesn't feel being left out. So, ever since he turned 18 till now we celebrate his birthday much bigger than he expects." The idea of this made me feel to do something for Jimin too.

"Okay, I'll tell you if something comes up." He grinned again.

"Well, I'll go and meet Jimin tomorrow. I'll tell him about you too." Taehyung grinned and bowed.

"Thank you so much, Hyung! I gotta run. See ya!" I waved at him as he runs away.

Such a kid.

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The next day, I headed to Jimin's store since it been a while. Whenever I step inside, the scent of these flowers attacks me.

"Jimin!" I called but met with his mom instead. His mom was a little surprised to see me.

"Oh, Yoongi."I politely bowed and she motions me to come closer.

"Where's Jimin?" She frowns a little.

"Is everything okay with you? I mean Jimin was a lot sad after he came back that day." I was right, Jimin was sad.

"Well, something happened. But is he okay? Where is he?"

"He is at the back yard but before that can I talk to you.." I was confused by the nod because the look of Jimin's mom was a little weird.

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Jimin's Pov :

I was in the backyard, in front of the garden where the flowers are. I was still sad about the whole matter but I'm trying to let it go.

"Stupid flower...why are you growing..you shouldn't grow..stupid...Roses. " I poked the roses until I decided to get inside because it is cold out here. When I got up and turned around to leave, I saw Yoongi.

"Yoongi?" I was surprised to see him here for real but at the same time, I don't want to see him at all.

"Jimin." I looked away before walking towards him, hugging myself.

"What brings you here?" I ask after pulling a smiling face.

"I uh...I was wondering if you were okay. I haven't seen you for a while so..kinda wanted to see you." I smiled at him.

"Oh~ that's so sweet of you. But I'm okay. Well, I'm trying to be okay." Yoongi moves closer and wraps his arms around me, the warmth of his body feels nice.

"I'm sorry that I have to put you through this. I really tried ignoring it but I can't. ..I'm tied to it you know." I know I should make a distance from him but it hurts me to stay away. I snuggle into his chest and quietly hear his heartbeat.

"Jimin..."

"It's okay. I shouldn't have expected too much. I'm on the wrong here." He tightens his hold around me.

"Your mom...told me something..maybe you were going to tell me that day, huh?" I jolted up and stepped away from him.

"She...she did...she told..you?" He nods while massaging his neck.

"I should've listened to you first before telling you what I had ...but now, it's kind of messed up.." I can't believe mom told him.

"It's okay...don't mind that. You don't have to worry about it." I saw a hint of guilty on his face and I don't want to make him sad by that. Instead of telling him to go away, I walked back and sunk into his arms again. Resting my head on his chest as he slowly wraps his arms around my waist.

"I'm sorry.." He whispers into my ear but I don't want to hear his apologies.

"It hurts you know...It hurts..this life sucks..why there are rules to fall in love..that's so unfair.." Yoongi snuggles into my hair as he plants small kisses on there.

"I know, it hurts me too ...to see you being like this..." I can't help but feel more for him where I should push him away and throw him out of my life.

My life sucks...

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I don't know when I fell asleep while crying. My head was heavy as I tried to get up but a wrist was on my waist. I turned around to see Yoongi sleeping beside me. I blinked a few times until my vision was okay and it is Yoongi.

My door cracked open a little and saw mom peaking inside. I titled my head and then I realised that my ears and tail is out.

Mom mouthed something and I understood what she told me.

'Let him sleep. He looked tired.' I nod and turned back to Yoongi and saw my tail was wrapped around his arm. He looks so cute when he sleeps like this.

I wish I could see him like this every day...

But a sigh left my mouth and I laid down again, facing Yoongi as he kept his mouth agape while sleeping. I traced my finger around his ear and brush his bangs away to see his closed eyes.

"Why can't it be me...am I not pretty. ..am I not beautiful. ..or is it because of my stupid scent...stupid scent...why it has to be scent..." I rant while leaning closer and our noses brushed against each other.

"I will miss you ...like a lot. ..don't forget about me...if you find your mate. ..I will still love you..no matter what..." I leaned in and press my lips on his for the last time because, after this, I won't bother him anymore.

I have to let him go...

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Please don't kill me. ;∆;