D.L.M || One-Shots

Could it be ? (2)

Previously:

I was walking back to my apartment and I only had something like two minutes left when a boy with white blonde hair catch to my attention.

Could it be ?

My heart starts to beat fast and my hands are shaking, I'm nervous again, I have to know is this really my love ? Is it really that one person I was begging to see again ? When I realize I was again daydreaming, I started to run towards that unknown person, what if it's not him ? Then you will just say sorry? I tap the person on the shoulder, and he turns around. I stop breathing, it's really him I directly recognize him because of his eyes. Grey and blue the perfect mix, where you would always get lost. I couldn't believe it we stared into each other eyes not saying anything. Should I be mad at him because he didn't return, he returned, but he didn't even give me a sign? Or should I be happy again and love him again, and be with him again, oh my God I don't know.

"Hey" - Draco says looking into my eyes, smiling. I want to say something I really want to, but I can't, it's like you would see your first love or crush and try to talk with him, but you are worrying about your voice because what if it's going to sound weird. After a few seconds I gain my confidence and answer "Hey" waving shyly. Without another word falling Draco hugs me tight. What- is he doing, but I couldn't help it and hug him back it feels so good being again in his arms. He didn't change his cologne it's still smelling the same way it was, and I absolutely love it. After a long hug he steps away, "I am so sorry my love, I waited for that moment so long, I really planned this conversation in my head, and now I don't know what to say I will just say what is on my heart. I didn't want to leave you, but you know I wasn't a good person, so was my family and I know,  you know that it wasn't my choice and I didn't want to do all these bad things, but I still did them, I still did it. My father also was involved in this whole Voldemort thing, well because of him I got involved, too. That's why my family and me had to leave, and I was begging my mom to just let me tell you or at least write to you, but she didn't let me, she said it's too dangerous that someone would get this letter and turns us in. I know this isn't a real reason to just let you alone these two years but all I can say is, that I am sorry, and I still love you, I thought about you every day and my only thought keeping me alive, was you. We were in a small family house in Scotland, my family especially my mother tried to keep us together as a family, but it didn't work I was just sitting in my room and my father well he was just in his office, sometimes I was walking around with my mom but every time we wanted to go out, we had to plan it because we were so scared that someone will recognize us." He finished his long speech out of breath, and I'm standing in front of him taking all this information in. I am shocked... I don't know what to say, and I don't know what to think again he broke me, he left me. In the two years, I was heartbroken, begging god to be able to smile again. "I am sorry Draco, It's just I know maybe you didn't want this, but you have to know that the two years were awful for me. Everyone around me was finally getting better after this horrible experience, expect me. I was heartbroken, and I was just laying in my bed crying, that was the only thing I was able to do, but luckily my friends helped me and got me a job that was distracting me, from crying and thinking about you. It's hard for me to just say now yeah great let's be together again because I don't know if I can." I could see that he was taken back by my words and I feel a bit of guilt ? No, what I just said was the right thing to do he had to know what he caused. Can we be together and happy again maybe even build a family together ? "Slap me"- Draco replies suddenly. "Wh-what ?"- I ask him, maybe I just misunderstood him. Come on, slap me y/n" - Draco responds looking at me with his memorizing eyes. My hand reacted before I could think, and I slapped him. My eyes widen, and I directly put my hand on his now red cheek. "S-..." - I try to say, but he stops me "Thank you, I know I've been an asshole to you and I know that I caused so many troubles and problems in your life. I don't deserve you but what I can tell you are that I got one letter from you, I don't know how, but I was more than happy to get this letter, I was reading it every day."

"One letter from my thousands ??? W-what letter did you got ?" At that moment he takes a letter out of his jacked and hands me it, I look at him and then at the letter slowly opening it.

Dear Draco,

I am angry, and I am so mad at you, but I still love you. This is my 1045 letter to you and I know that you probably won't get this letter either, but I can't help it and still try. You can't imagine what big problems you caused in my life. I am heartbroken, and I am so hurt that the only thing I can do is laying in my bed or in my living room crying or even sometimes just looking at the ceiling feeling nothing. At first, I thought you would come back, so I was visiting your manor every day. Every day it was empty no one was there and no I wasn't in your room I couldn't bear to do this. It would just remind me of you.

What I am trying to say is that I will try to move on, I waited for 16 months what doesn't mean that I will stop waiting for you because I won't. But my friends helped me to see that I have to move on and try to live my life. Try to be happy. So this is what I am doing this letter is a kind of goodbye letter. I love you, and you will be always the love of my life and even when I thought my future would include you my life decided against it. I don't know if that is a good choice, but I know that I have to live again. I stopped writing this letter so many times because I always thought, what if he would come back in the next 10 minutes, but it never happened. I always wanted to have three children with you, little mini us running around in the garden and destroying the flowers we planted. Of course, we would be a bit angry with them...well I am lying no we wouldn't because I know what a good father you would be. I know that you would care for our kids so much and love them, giving them the feeling of safeness. My life decided against these dreams from me. At first, I didn't want to believe it that I would never be with you again and that I would never have a family with you and I still don't believe it and I will never believe it, but I have to live for my parents for my family and myself.

Be happy, you deserved it. My darling, my love, my love of my life.

Yours, y/n

I am speechless again. " You did the right thing and even when it hurts to know that you moved on without exactly wanting that, but you did. I am proud of you, I'm happy for you because it's me that was the problem, that caused so much sadness in your life. But I want to let you know one thing that's your dreams were also mine, and they are still mine because I will never stop loving you my little darling." I could see the tears that were coming up, and I couldn't stop it, but I am also crying. " Draco, maybe it looks like I moved on, but I never did I never stop loving you there's no one else in my life.......please come back to me" - I say, with tears coming from my eyes, begging him. Maybe it is a stupid decision and maybe my life doesn't want that, but I want him. I need him. He looks at me and in the next moment I feel his lips on mine and his hand on my right cheek. Did I pull away ? No, I didn't. I let him and even kissed back.

That my darlings is the story of me and your father, yes a very complicated one, but you know even when your life is holding you back from having that one thing when you want this fight for it and never give up. "Wow mommy that is a true love story, you should write a book about it." - Lily, our four-year-old baby girl says, standing up. " Mommy, daddy I think he baked my favorite cake" And with that she was whining downstairs and me just laughing, sitting with Scorpius in my arms, who was 7 months old. "Yes my little boy, one day I will tell you that story again, so you can remember it and now let's go to your daddy and your sister.

I have everything I've ever wanted, and I couldn't be more happy about it.

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I do not own draco malfoy or Voldemort.
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