𝐔𝐍𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐔𝐍𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐘, 𝐈 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔

fourth memory.

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ [FOURTH MEMORY] ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌
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THE STORY OF HOW CHOI
YEONJUN WAS ALWAYS IN
LOVE WITH KANG JIEUN
FROM THE VERY START
TO THE VERY END.

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CHOI YEONJUN has felt many things. he has felt happiness, sadness, excitement, confusion, love...

only familial love.

yeonjun never really... like liked someone before. no one ever really caught his attention.

maybe it was because jieun was always shining so brightly in front of him.

or maybe not.

maybe.

it's something that yeonjun doesn't like to think about. the one time he did, he spent a whole month living in a blur without having noticed it. jieun said he looked like a zombie, and he probably did.

she never lies to him.

he never wants to ignore her, never wants to make her feel bad like how he did when he was having his crisis.

but now... now it's a little hard to ignore those feelings because:

1. kang jieun keeps getting prettier and prettier both inside and outside.

2. there's this choi beomgyu dude that obviously has a crush on jieun. his jieun.

and yeonjun feels guilty for harboring ill feelings towards the younger boy. beomgyu seems like a nice guy, and yeonjun's positive that if he had met him earlier, the three of them would have been an inseparable group, jieun being the glue that holds them together. but that's not the case, and he unfortunately already dislikes the boy.

even just seeing him from afar makes his stomach twist and churn out of fear that beomgyu might just... steal jieun away from him.

so when yeonjun spots beomgyu taking to haein not too far from where he and jieun stand, he feels something crawling up his throat, itching to get out. he coughs and wheezes, doubling over and watching in horror as a cherry blossom, jieun's supposed favorite, falls from his lips. as jieun asks if he's alright, yeonjun snatches the cherry blossom and tucks it away.

jieun can't be allowed to see it. she can't know.

and he can't admit the truth because he knows what will happen.

it's a couple days later now since the incident. he and jieun are watching some movie on his bed with their knees up to their chests as they eat some ramyeon. he's not really paying attention to the movie playing on jieun's laptop because all he can focus on is jieun and the way she stares intently at the screen in front of them.

no, no, he thinks, glancing away. i can't and i won't.

he will never admit the truth because if he does... he knows that the cherry blossoms he coughs up will be over jieun, and he'd rather die than to ever forget about her and all of his beautiful memories of her.

he will never let it get to that.

but he doesn't know why he suddenly says that he loves baek haein, the annoying girl that won't leave him alone just to get to choi beomgyu. maybe it's because she said that she loves someone—someone that might not be him.

i love y—

his heart drops to the ground as jieun's face becomes pale and she runs towards the bathroom, shutting the door. yeonjun pounds on it, his throat dry and his eyes wide in fear. he calls out her name like a mantra, only to hear sounds of her coughing and gagging behind the closed door.