pretend || tsukikage

Chapter 12

Kageyama's POV

Surprisingly, mother didn't even beat me today. She looks rather happy? Why though? Maybe because when I was gone for a week she's been going well? Or perhaps she got the help she needs?

It's nice though, even father is not here to do something to me because he's going overseas for work. I don't know where, but I'm thankful.

Knock Knock

I jolted out from my sit, I was listening to music and doing all my homework before going to school tomorrow. I look at the watch beside my bed;

6:20 pm

Knock Knock

I stared at my bedroom's door and walk towards it. Opening the door, I see my mother smiling at me.

Wait- smiling at me? Oh wow, it's been awhile since I saw she's like this.

"Hi, mother." I smiled back at her.

"Hi, Tobio! I made us a dinner, let's eat together." she said, patting my head slowly.

"Sure, I will be downstairs in a minute." I replied.

"Okay, I will make your food ready." She walks away.

I sigh and gather all my homework in one place before going downstairs.

My mother wave at me.

It's weird, but I like it. I like how she's treating me right now. Like how any mother would treat their child.

"Eat up! You're a grown man now, tommorow after school, do you have any club's practice?" she asked, putting more food into my plate.

"No, why are you asking?"

"Great! We'll be going to a mall then!" she said, cheerily.

"Oh, okay." I looked down at my plate, it's full of foods. A foods that I probably can't taste anything at all. Of course, she's being so nice to me, in return the least I could do is eating the food.

I shove the food into my mouth and cringe mentally when it's taste like nothing. I shove more and more into my mouth.

It taste disgusting, and it makes me want to vomit. Make me what to puke all the things inside my stomach.

Maybe... I could puke all of it?

"Mother, I finished." I said, standing up.

"Okay! I'll wash your dishes, go do your homework." she said, taking my plate.

I nodded and run to my bedroom to take the towels then to the bathroom.

I shove my pointer and middle finger into my throat. Choking and puking all of the foods into the toilet. Tears roll down my cheeks as I puke all of the food that left.

I pull my hair, harder each time I puke. Each time the voices inside my head become more loud.

'Selfish.'

'Faggot.'

'Purging your food? Disgusting.'

Huh? Isn't that.... Tsukishima's voice?

'I hate you.'

No..stop..

'King.'

Stop.. please...

'You should die.'

No...

'I made dinner for us, treating you nicely and this is how you repay me?'

M-mother?

'Unbelievable! I should just beat you until you can't eat anymore.'

Stop... STOP

'Maybe I should just beat you until you can't even tell if you're alive.'

No..no...stop.. stop stop stop..

Knock Knock

"Hey, are you okay in there Tobio? Let me know if you are, I'll be downstairs."

I jolted out almost falling to the ground. I breathe heavily. I sigh and plush the toilet.

I slipped off my shirt and pants. I open the water and sit down at the floor. I pick up my breathing pace slowly.

Tears slowly rolls down my cheeks.

What a wonderful day.

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I got home from school and throw myself to the couch.

"Tobio, go shower first. Then you can rest for awhile, we're going out at 5pm." Mother said, from the kitchen.

"Okay." I said, lazily. I walk to my bedroom slowly and carefully.

Once I got into my bedroom, I throw myself to the bed, once again.

"Tobio!"

"Sorry. I will shower now." I said, standing up and take my towels and walked towards the bathroom.