M'lady..

space..

"i just need space"

i wriggled my way out of the hug and took her teddy off the bed.. i ran into the corner and just kept hugging this bear.. there was just something special to it.. maybe cause it was marinettes comfort teddy i don't know..

"poor boy" alya said

"it hit him harder than it hit anyone.."

i pretended not to hear anything.. i just burried my head into this bear.

"omg i have an idea.. adrien can i see the bear?" alya asked.

i handed her it.. she ran out before i could get it back.. i needed that bear.. i noticed everyone had ran after alya.. i just left the room for the first time since she left me.. not for the bathroom.. not for a shower.. for a cup of coffee.. i was exhausted and couldn't sleep. i seen sabine at the opposite side of the room, we made eye contact and she warmly smiled at me.. she didn't judge me for looking a wreck. i ran so fast over to her and hugging her, i just needed the warm hug.

"i take it you'll want me to leave soon?" i asked

"no, we know what's going on and it must be hard on you.. you can stay here for 10 years and me and tom couldn't care. you can basically just move in.. i know marinette would love for you to stay" she said.

i hugged her so tight, i was so happy but so sad at the same time.. i didn't need to worry about living anywhere or finding houses. i got my coffee and walked upstairs.. i don't know what was going on anymore.. marinette dying.. father basically kicking me out.. i started taking sips off my coffee, it was bitter... god knows how much sugars marinette put in my coffee.. i sat at the desk and just sat there overthinking everything. everywhere i'd look there was photos of us.. i was lost in thought until the class came in..

"adrien?" they said

i turned around and sipped my cold coffee.. they handed me a box.. i opened it, the bear?

"press it's heart" alya said

"i love you adrien"

they put marinettes voice into the bear.. now i'll always have her voice with me. i ran over to alya and hugged her, i slowly felt her return the hug and i was just happy that they even decided to do something like that. after a couple seconds i let go of the hug and sat back down.

"adrien is that cold bitter coffee?" chloe asked

"yeah.. i dont know how marinette made hers.."

"awk"

i sat drinking the bitter coffee squeezing this bear just to hear her voice one more time.. i didn't get to say goodbye.. and neither did she.. i wish it was me.. i wish she was beside me.. her leaving me is not what i wanted.. my life couldn't get any worse now, it's at its worst.. i swear i'll kill that moth one day.. i'll kill that stupid peacock too.. they killed the one person that made me so happy and now i need to deal with the pain.. it's the fact i can't tell anyone how she died.. atlest i have plagg and tikki.. the class slowly left... one by one.. i just tidied up the bits of marinettes room i messed up, it wasn't a lot.. just pushing in the chairs.. the only thing i didn't put to normal was the blind, i preferred the dark room.. everyone's clearly worrying but i don't get what's wrong, isn't this not normal? of course i'm going to grief when i've lost the only person who means the whole world to me.. i lay in her bed.. taking in her scent that was left of the duvet and squeezing the bear as i fell asleep.